𝑺𝒕𝒖𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒏 𝒚𝒐𝒖 • Sam Evans

𝟐𝒙𝟏𝟖: 𝑩𝒐𝒓𝒏 𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝑾𝒂𝒚

Heartless. That's how I had been feeling that whole week. And it didn't seem like it was going to get better because, everytime I thought about him, I felt like crying a river all over again.

After the horrible Saturday night, I woke up and saw Finn trying to make pancakes with Mercedes and Quinn. Lots of hugs and tissues after, Monday came and, with it, my fear of seeing Sam again. I didn't know how it happened or what did my best friends say to the rest of the club but that morning nobody said anything when they saw me sit between Finn and Quinn, Sam being the person who was sitting the furthest from me but, after Finn accidentally broke Rachel's nose, thankfully I was no longer the center of attention. That honor passed to Finn with his dangerous dancing and Rachel and her nose job.

"I'm considering having a minor procedure to repair my deviated septum" Rachel stated.

"So, a nose job" Santana said.

"Look, I'm... I'm happy with the way I look, okay?" Rachel said. "And I've embraced my nose. But let's say I wanted to have a slightly more demure nose. Like Quinn's for example. I would never change my appearence for vanity, but, I mean, the doctor said that it could possibly improve my talent which would help us all for Nationals".

"But what about the risks?" Mr Schue asked concerned. "Your voice is amazing as is, Rachel".

"Hold up. Could we all just get real here for a second?" Santana asked. "I hear that Rachel's got a bit of a schnoz. I mean, I wouldn't know because, like Medusa, I try to avoid eye contact with her. But can we all just stop lying about how there aren't things that we wouldn't change about ourselves? I mean, I'm sure Sam's been at the doctor's office and rifled through pamphlets on mouth reduction. I'll bet Artie's thought about getting his legs removed since he's not really using them anyways. And I'm definitely sure that Tina's looked into getting an eye de-slating".

"That's extraordinarily racist" she complained. "Sorry Santana. I'm a beautiful person, I'm in love with myself and I would never change a thing".

"Is that why you're wearing blue contacts today, Tina?" Mike said. "Self-hating asian".

"I'm just tring to mirror what I see in magazines" she defended herself.

"My dancing kind of bothers me. It almost killed Rachel, but I like the way I look" Finn said, interrumpting MIke and Tina's conversation. I smiled a little remembering how scared he was to show his body a few months ago.

"Oh, please. You have weird, puffy pyramid nipples" Santana spat. "They look like they're filled with custard or you could dust them with powdered sugar and they could pass for some sort of dessert. Look, maybe Rachel's fine with having an enormous beak. Maybe she needs it to crack hard seeds. All I'm saying is that if you look in the mirror and you don't like what you see, you should change it".

"Can you stop?" I asked, talking for the first time in the whole lesson. "Please you really need to listen to yourselfs and shut up. Let Rachel do whatever she wants".

"No" Mr Schue interrumpted me. "This goes against everything this club stands for. The thing you like the least about yourself is the best thing about you"

"Not at this school Mr Schue" Mercedes said. And, at that moment I didn't know how true it was.

...

"And then she walked out and said gay instead of go. Like three times. “I gotta gay, no, go, I gotta go”" Mercedes whispered to me as we walked into the choir room for the next practice. Well, obviously I had my doubts of why Santana would say that but I couldn't tell Mercedes about Santana being in love with Brittany. Even though Cedes was my best friend and that Santana was mad at me. A secret is a secret, even the well-knowns.