If you told me last year to picture the future
Asked me where I would want to be now
I'd probably say that I didn't want change
Our separation I'd never allow
Then you'd tell me the tale of my future
Explain how I walked out first
I'd never believe you in ten thousand years,
Cos I loved you even at my worst
If you asked me how I pictured our end
Which I surely could not bear to do
I would say there'd be pain, and torture and darkness
That came after loosing you
Because your smallest words
Had caused me the greatest of pain
I was naive and clueless and so very young
And to me, everything was in vain
Then you'd tell me the truth about how I cried hard
For a whole night, and never did stop
But then I got up and I went on my way
As soon as the last tear had dropped
And unlike the times where I'd lied to myself
About hating you and your cruel ways
This time you'd cut deeper than ever before
With only a single phrase
So for once, I wasn't pretending
On the inside, I was okay
Because you'd done something so very awful and
Now I just didn't love you that way
Yes, at first it had been hard
And it took me some time to regain
All the confidence that had been broken down
By my suffering and pain
And I'd ask you: what's the difference?
How would I know it wasn't the same?
All those times when I simpy forgave you,
When you were always to blame?
And you'd stop for a minute and smile
Because this part of the story is great-
When I thought of you, I was just nuetral
Twas neither love nor hate
My indifference allowed me to find
What I had been missing so long-
For a minute there, I'd lost myself
The girl who'd once been so headstrong...
Soon enough, though, I found her again
And I instantly knew it was true
Because in no time I felt that special way again
Only this time it wasn't for you
And at some point I had stopped counting
Down the days that no longer felt long
And I lost myself in my music
Felt comfort in lyrics and song
And the time no longer scared me
And the weekdays became just as fun
And I opened up to new people
Raised my shades, and let in the sun
And I thought of you less and less
And I smiled around other guys
Sometimes I thought of the days we had left
And I started to realize
It was all for the best
So long, you had held me down
And of course I still cared about you
But for now, I'd replaced my frown
I knew that when things were good
I'd feel so very happy and sound
But it was no longer worth the risk
Of you pushing me back to the ground
And you'd finish the story for me
And I'd stare back in shock and cry
Because back then I'd thought that we were forever
If only I knew how time flies
