This morning I woke up and barely recognized myself.
And it wasn't my appearance that had changed;
But lately I've been feeling like an actor in a play
And maybe that is why we were estranged.
I always blamed these things on other people,
I would forget the fault may too be mine,
So I put myself in your shoes for a moment,
And If you'd said what I had, no, I would not be fine.
So maybe it was I that had been different,
I expected you to always choose me first.
But I realize I did not return the favor,
So I'm sorry that you knew me at my worst.
Because I don't recall a single time I told you
How much our short-lived friendship meant to me.
I am sorry if I made you feel unwanted,
And I'm sorry if I never let you see.
But I guess along the way I just grew up,
And your pedestal was lowered to the ground.
I thought you'd been acting like someone else,
But I realize that illusion was unsound.
They always warned me but I just didn't see it,
The truth was clouded by my insecurity,
To be honest I was happy just to know
That you would even give the time of day to me.
But I'm sturdy now, I know who I am
And I'm not afraid to let my voice be heard
Once I learned to let more people in again,
I found that you were not the one I thought you were
My confidence is new, I'm not quite used to it
I'm feeling my way out into the world
Sometimes even I'm surprised by the things I say or do
I love watching as the new me is unfurled
