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This wasn't the first time Shin experienced something as such

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This wasn't the first time Shin experienced something as such. He had been like this a few times earlier, and all the reasons were because of his past. Sometimes, he would get flashbacks. Vivid, coloured and booming flashbacks — his tiny heart would start throbbing with fear in sleep and Shin would have trouble in breathing. 

But only a few times. Only until he turned seven. After that, it all stopped. 

That night became locked up in Shin's subconscious memories and he succeeded in convincing himself he was safe. 

That no monster would come to snatch him in the dead of the night and unleash all sorts of brutality on him, no monster would bend and break his body beyond his will, that no monster… 

Or man would touch him. 

Pretty boys like you are filthy. If people know, they will hate you. You don't want them to hate you, eh little HwaShin? 

HwaShin had no choice but to nod and listen when there was a hand clamped over his mouth. 

You are so pretty. Just like your mother. But if you tell your mother, she will die. You don't want that, do you? 

Shin had begged him to stop.

It wasn't his fault. 

But that night, it got embedded deep in his mind that people would hate him if he told them he was raped. Because HwaShin did the mistake of telling his mother, and his mother ended up dead. 

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"Shin-ah, can you hear me?" 

"Water." Shin mumbled, disoriented and confused. 

"Yes, yes water. " JaeHwan bolted to the water dispenser and filled a cup of water to the brim before handing it to Shin. A few drops of water spilled on to the bedsheet. JaeHwan watched as Shin slowly raised his skeletal arms to his lips and tipped the cup over, before hurling out the water in a coughing fit. 

"Shin-ah!" JaeHwan patted the boy's back, reaching by his side almost instantly. JaeHwan had a massive spasm in his neck and back muscles. He had ended up sleeping in a twisted position, holding Shin's hand and his torso lying on Shin's bed. 

Butler Lee had come after hearing about it from JaeHwan, bringing with him all sorts of fruits and a few of Shin's clothes for a change. 

Shin put a hand on his sternum and coughed before warding JaeHwan's hand away softly. The boy didn't have much strength left in him. 

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