An Angel With A Samurai

Chapter 26

I practically ran back to Caelans house, ran up the stairs and locked myself in the bathroom. This can't be happening. I cried. I haven't cried for years. It honestly felt so good.
Caelan knocked on the door quietly "Morgan, are you ok?"
"I'm fine, I.. I just really needed the loo" I replied.

I need to leave and find Billy.

I listened at the door for a few minutes and it was completely silent. I opened it and saw Caelan sitting on the bed waiting for me. He looked at my face and a panic look washed over him "oh god Morgan, did I hurt you? I'm so sorry I took it too far" he went to hug me "please don't" I put my hand up and he stopped still "you didn't hurt me Caelan, I promise, I just really have to leave, do you know where my clothes are?"

"Leave? Why do you need to leave now?"
"I told you, I'm here to find my brother, and he's clearly not here so I need move on".
"That's total bull shit and you know it" he said calmly "tell me the real reason you are running away from me?"
"I'm not running away, I have a mission and..."
"You are running away and you're using your brother as an excuse" he was shouting so I started shouting "I'm not just a possession or a pretty little housewife to run your bloody pack with, pop out a few babies and bake brownies on a weekend, if you want that then you'll need to find someone else" I was shaking.

He looked taken a back

"Is that how you think I see you? Just something to own and bear my children? When have I ever given you any reason to think that?" He was shouting again "I see you as my equal, as my everything, you are the strongest person I have ever met, you saved my brothers life when he should be dead and risked your own life to save a bunch of people you'd never met, I don't want you by side just to have my kids and bake brownies I want you by my side because you're going to be the best and strongest god damn Luna this world has ever seen and I don't even like fucking brownies" he shouted that last bit quite loudly.

"How can you not like brownies?" Is all I could come out with. He grabbed his hair and laughed "all I said and all you heard is I don't like brownies" his voice went a little high, he laughed again and sat down.

I sat down next to him.
"I'm sorry" and I put my head in my hands and cried again.
He put his arms around me and held me until I finished my little out burst.

We lay down with my head on his chest in silence.

I need to get this out there.
"I was in love before". Caelan stayed quiet and was stroking my hair "his name was Luke. He was a hunter the same as me, a brilliant fighter. So fast and strong. He was part of our Scottish team, he had to go home and promised he would be back and never leave me again. Being a hunter can be quite lonely so to have someone to share it with is a pretty special thing. He'd been back on his home turf when he was attacked. I never heard from him again. My heart cracked  that day Caelan, I became weak. My granny sent me to our London farm to continue my training. I had friends there who were with me from the beginning. While I was there Billy was deployed to the states and then went missing, It completely broke me. I slept around. A lot. I wanted to feel wanted but didn't want to be close to anyone. I even slept with one of my trainers, he was also one of my oldest friends. Then Granny died and what was left of my heart just shattered. I had nothing left to live for.
Meredith, the witch I was an apprentice too, was also the love of my brothers life. She told me after he went missing that their souls were entwined, the perks of being in love with a witch I suppose. She felt it when Billy went missing, she said her soul had broken. You said you saw me glow earlier Caelan, that was my aura you were seeing, our souls are entwining"

"what does that mean?" He asked quietly
"it means I'm letting you in, I'm falling in love with you, and it means that if anything happens to you then my soul will be destroyed the same as my heart. I can't bear to lose anyone else". A lump formed in my throat and I felt the tears trickle down my face.

"I guess we are suffering the same then" he said thoughtfully. I lifted my head to look in his eyes
"what do you mean?
He looked me right back in the eyes "because I've fallen in love with you too".