SO THIS IS LOVE | Hyungwon (Editing)

Chapter11

Seonji and I are currently in the cafeteria eating lunch. We are eating silently when she suddenly started the conversation.

"Tell me" she said.

"Tell you what?"

"What do you plan to do now?Are you gonna keep on chasing Hyungwon seonbae"

"Do I really need to stop?" I asked. I really don't want to stop talking to him, it's my first time feeling this happy talking to a guy except for my brother, but on second thought, I don't want Hyungwon seonbae to hate me, he kinda does but I don't want to add up onto that.

"I already told you about this but you know, you should think, think if what your heart wants won't hurt or make anyone uncomfortable. What if what you want will make him uncomfortable, will it make you happy? You can't just force him to like you, you did everything you can but there's no progress, right? If he really is the one for you, then it will came to him and he will realise it himself. If he doesn't then it's his loss. You can still like him from afar without making him uncomfortable. I really wanted to make you happy and help you in pursuing the one you like but this case is different. He's giving you a hint and you should take it."Seonji said.

She's right...I'm being selfish for bothering him without even thinking if he doesn't want it or not.

"Seonji-ah, I think you're right...I'll talk to him for the last time today. I promise I'll stop starting tomorrow" I said. Seonji gave me a smile.

"Okay, promise me that today is the last time"

"I promise! Let's continue eating" We spent our whole time talking about random stuff and it really ate up the time. I tried not to think of Hyungwon seonbae and focus on every class but it didn't work, especially now that my last class is starting. The class I'm taking with him.

Seonji and I went to our last class. We entered the classroom and I noticed that Hyungwon seonbae is not yet here. The professor is already inside but he's still not here.

He's late.

The professor already started his class when Hyungwon seonbae arrived. Since there isn't much seat left, he has no choice but to seat in the empty chair next to me. I won't lie, it is no coincidence. I purposely told the students who would sit next to me that there is someone who owns the seat. This is the least I can do as someone who will talk to him for the last time. He went to sit next to me and sigh as he sat.

"Seonbae, why are you late?"I asked.

"Didn't I told you not to talk to me?"

"Seonbae, didn't I also told you that I won't?" I said, giving him a playful smile. He was about to say something but he just closed his mouth and smiled.

Wait-what?!He smiled?!It's not a happy smile but he still did.

"Seonbae, am I seeing things right? You smiled?!"I asked, stunned. He got flustered and quickly returned to his resting bitch face.

"Am I not allowed to? Also, I didn't smile because of you, I smiled because I'm dumbfounded" he said.

"At least you smiled, even if it's not because of me-I mean it is because of me but not a happy smile...Thank you~"

"for what?"

"For smiling, don't worry seonbae, I won't bother you anymore. Thank you for talking to me today...and also I'm sorry" I said. He just looked at me for a few seconds and looked away.

Can I really go back to my old routine? I can't handle it alone!