the wind above the ocean // taekook

seventeen.

good days - sza

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a movie night. with his crush. in his room. on his bed. as if Jungkook could ever say no to that.

something about Taehyung's room was mesmerizing for the younger. it wasn't chaotic, just - full of character. the fashion drawings spread across his desk, a few green post-it notes with his messy handwriting, books on his nightstand, pictures and memories on the walls. you could tell a lot about the older, just by looking into his room for a few minutes.

Jungkook was a little sad and ... jealous. he was never allowed to be himself. his room, back in the house up the hill, was messy. he never took the time to organize it, random stuff spread across the whole bedroom floor. but non of them meant anything to the boy. his actual interests sat behind closed doors. in the corner of his closet, under his bed. while you could get to know Taehyung with just one glance into his room, you had to fight through all the facades Jungkook had built up over the years. dig deep until you reach the furthest corner to understand him.

when he heard footsteps coming up, he quickly sat back on the bed. hands folded awkwardly in his lap. Taehyung brought all the snacks he had bought. placed them at the end of the bed, while sitting down beside Jungkook.

he was so close. the bed was king sized - why was he sitting so close?

the younger bit the inside of his cheek. glanced at the other. that one question had been burning on his tongue. he had to ask.

"are you and, what was her name - Rae... dating?"

he took the remote control out of the older's hand to search for the movie on netflix. he had to distract himself in order to stop him from saying more stupid things. Taehyung chuckled, scratched the back of his neck.

"well, long story short - we were but broke up back in march because uhm Rae ... came out as ...uhm lesbian to me."

he had never told anyone, scared to hear their reaction. the older glanced at Jungkook, sure that he would laugh at him. but the younger only smiled while starting the movie. howl's moving castle. he'd spent the evening with two of his childhood crushes. Taehyung and ... Howl.

the anime has always been one of his favorites. he has seen it over a hundred times. back when he and Taehyung first became friends, the older used to host studio ghibli movie nights at his house. the younger wasn't sure if the other remembered even one of them, but for 14-year-old Jungkook, those sleepovers were the best times of his childhood. in the safe space of his friend's living room, far away from his own home.

but this time he didn't get to see much of the movie. his tired eyes. the dim lights. the soft covers. the warmth of Taehyung's body beside him. one thing let to another and Jungkook fell asleep. the end credits of the movie became the soundtrack of his dream.