the wind above the ocean // taekook

eighteen.

goodnight baby - tarune

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Taehyung had not moved an inch for about two hours now. stiff body, racing heart, black tv screen. the movie had ended a while ago. he took a glance to the side - Jungkook slept soundly. leaning on the older's shoulder, a hand on his arm, softly gripping the fabric of his sweater.

Taehyung gulped. he gently took the younger's hand, placed it on the bed and wiggled out of his grasp. slow and quiet movements so he wouldn't wake the other up. he tiptoed to his desk and sat down on the chair. a look over the shoulder, to make sure Jungkook was still sleeping, before he opened his laptop.

his fingers hovered hesitantly over the keyboard for a second. he looked over his shoulder again, gulped. the glowing screen blinding him slightly. he quickly typed in the words and clicked on the first website that popped up.

>> am i gay? quiz

he scrolled down to the first question.

>> do you find people of the opposite gender attractive?

he thought of Rae. eyed the pictures on his wall, he knew exactly which ones had her face on them.

answer: yes.

>> do you find people of the same gender attractive?

Taehyung sighed. if he knew that, he wouldn't take this test. he looked back at Jungkook, still sleeping on his bed. with the blanket pulled up to his chest and his hair all messy, he looked cute.

answer: yes.

>> do you have experience with the opposite gender? (dating, sex, etc.)

answer: yes.

>> do you have experience with the same g-

Taehyung couldn't finish reading as he closed his laptop shut. he heard the rustling of clothes coming from the direction of his bed. Jungkook had sat up, rubbed his eyes sleepily. he yawned and looked around the room in confusion.

"i slept through ... the whole movie ... how late is it? ... i should ... go downstairs ... and sleep ... on the couch ..."

he slowly fell back on the bed again, stretching his arms and legs. mumbling something about missing Taehyung under his breath. meanwhile said boy walked over to the bed again. ears bright red. luckily it was too dark to see.

"it's fine ... you can sleep uhm here if you want ... the bed is more comfortable anyway and uhm you're so tired ..."

before Taehyung could even finish his rambling, Jungkook had already fallen asleep again. the older crawled under the covers, plenty of space between them, and stared at the orher's back. he was indecisive but his hand moved on its own. he slid a little closer and put an arm around the younger's waist. his heart was beating so loud he was afraid it would wake Jungkook. but he only snuggled closer, leaning his back against the other's chest.

it took a while until Taehyung's heart calmed down, his breathing became even and his mind stopped racing. no wonder, after all, his childhood best friend was laying in his arms and they were ... cuddling. never in his life he had thought that this would happen. he knew he would regret it the day after, but at that exact moment, in the middle of the night in his room, illuminated by the light of the moon, it felt like the right thing to do.