the wind above the ocean // taekook

twenty.

cosmic dust - chung ha

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"Tae it's 2 am... what in the world are you doing here?"

"i kissed him."

"you kissed who?"

Taehyung climbed through the window and rolled onto his friend's bed. he laid on his back and stared at the ceiling, breathing heavily from running.

"Jungkook."

"did you seriously run all the way here?"

"Jimin concentrate! i'm being serious."

the older sighed sleepily, rubbed his eyes. he closed the window and sat back down on his bed, right next to his friend.

"okay, please calm down and tell me the whole story."

"so me and Jungkook watched a movie, he fell asleep on my shoulder, i suddenly had the thought of liking him, so i took a 'am i gay' quiz online and one of the questions is 'do you have any experience with the same gender' and i thought 'no', so i asked Jungkook if we could go stargazing and then i kissed him, panicked and ran here."

"uhm well, what were the results of the test?"

"Jimin!"

Jimin sighed again, before laying down on his back as well, staring at the ceiling. when he was 15 he had stuck a bunch of glowing stars on it but over time most of them fell down. only seven lonely stars had survived to this day.

"did you like it?"

there was silence at first. Taehyung was hesitant for a moment but nodded after a while. his head was hurting - too many thoughts ran circles in his mind.

"when me and Rae were dating i ... was so sure that i was ... in love ... what do i do now? how do i know? that i'm ... gay, i mean. how does one find out?"

Jimin rolled on his stomach. he gently brushed through his friend's blond curls, pushed them out of his face. no words could describe how much he loved his soulmate.

"figuring out that one is gay doesn't happen over night honey. it takes time. but from a gay mans perspective - taking a 'am i gay' quiz, kissing their homie just to find an answer to one of the questions and then freaking out about it later on because they enjoyed it - isn't really something a straight guy would do. that all sounds pretty gay to me ... and i know that you loved Rae. anyone could see that. you can like both girls and boys at the same time. maybe your bi? or pan? who knows?"

Taehyung smiled softly, played with his sweater's sleeves. he was satisfied with the answer but fear grew inside him.

"what if he hates me now? ... i just ran away after kissing him."

"i mean running away was stupid but i don't think he hates you, he has like the biggest crush on you, anywa-"

Jimin slapped his hand on his mouth. oh god - Jungkook will hate him for spilling his secret. Taehyung rolled onto his stomach as well.

"what did you just say?"

"nothing?"

"you just said he has a crush on me."

as Taehyung had the brightest smile painted on his lips, Jimin couldn't hold back. he gave in to his friend's puppy dog eyes. his mind was way too tired to think properly right now.

"you didn't hear it from me, okay? even though i think i'm the only person he has told so far."

the younger jumped up from the bed and did a silent happy dance, careful not to wake anyone. but his joy didn't last long, as he suddenly remembered something. his smile dropped, eyes went wide. he sat back down and pulled out his phone.

"i can't go back home now ... i'm way too embarrassed ... i'm texting him that i will sleep here tonight."

"who said you could stay here?"

"Jimin!"

"Tae!"