the wind above the ocean // taekook

twentyfour.

on the floor - perfume genius

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"has anyone told you yet, that you look hella hot as a vampire?"

"yes, you, about 4 times already - now shut up i'm trying to do your makeup-"

Jungkook trailed off, concentrating on the black line he drew around Taehyung's eyes. sitting on the older's lap, his hand's around his waist, the boy tried to give him the makeup look of the joker. they were invited to Namjoon's halloween party. yes, the whole group was in their twenties and yes, they all came dressed up. life's too short to be boring.

"stop kissing me, i have a job to do."

the younger pushed Taehyung back on the chair. Jungkook's ears turned red, embarrassed by his own bold moves. Taehyung had gotten pretty confident these past few weeks. the older pouted while he let the other draw fake tattoos on his skin.

"do you know how hard it is to hold back when someone so hot is sitting on my lap? it doesn't happen often that a handsome vampire is in my living room."

to no surprise, they were too late at the party. the muffled base of "mixtape 2003" by the academic greeted them as they arrived in Namjoon's front yard. they got out of Taehyung's car, the clinging and flirting had stopped once their friends house was in view. Jungkook pouted. he was already missing the older's hands on his skin, the comfort of his arms, the warmth of his body.

the music became clear once Taehyung opened the door for them. people dancing or chatting or playing drinking games everywhere. the older remembered some students from his course who said hi to him. everyone was wearing fun outfits. Taehyung actually loved parties. the games, the alcohol, the music. Namjoon's halloween party had become pretty known over the years, an event for all students of their university complex.

"i'll bring us something to drink."

Taehyung left Jungkook's side and made his way to the kitchen. a couple was wildly making out in one of the corners while the older just tried to make himself a drink. vodka orange for Jungkook, plain orange juice for him.

he felt nervous. maybe not as nervous as on the younger's birthday but still enough to make his hands shake and his heart beat fast. he also felt a bit ... off. guilty in a way. he put on an act and was hurting Jungkook while doing so. he liked the younger. he liked spending time with him, eat dinner on the living room floor. liked drinking coffee with him while watching the sunset from the back porch. he liked to cuddle and kiss him.

but the moment they stepped foot outside he couldn't do it. couldn't bring his hand up to hold Jungkook's. heck, he couldn't even look him in the eyes. scared the younger could see his own fear. he wanted to be there for his friend. make him realize that he could be proud to be gay and not hide it from others. but now look at him. too scared to even hold his crushes hand.

Taehyung leaned on the kitchen counter, let his head hang low. he felt like the biggest looser.