Amnesia

Human

When Grian woke up the next day. He was beyond exhausted, but Xisuma was talking to him and keeping him awake.

"Your immune system isn't what it used to be Gri. You get sick easier." Xisuma said looking at his eyes, "It worries me."

"X.. I know.. But that's one of the few things we can't control."

"Every other biome you go to harms you because your immune system can't handle it."

"The weather changes. I know. Xisuma I don't need a babysitter."

"Right now you do. And that isn't up for debate."

"At this rate you're not only my boyfriend, but DaddyVoid as well."

"Don't you dare."

"What?"

"You know what."

"Okay. Okay. Sheesh, spaz machine."

"You're lucky I love you."

When Xisuma turned around to grab something, Grian taunted, "Oh DaddyVoid... Can you get me some foods please?"

"Grian I swear. I will unhook that oxygen machine."

"You wouldn't dare."

"Did you just say dare?"

"Okay, okay. You've made your point my-"

Xisuma glared at him.

"I was gonna say Void Boyfriend."

"I hate you so much."

"Awe I love you too."

After a couple minutes of just making sure Grian was able to breathe properly, Xisuma started looking at everything else on him.

For a second, Grian chuckled, "Hey, you remember that time when you found me outside in the rain?"

"Yeah. You were singing. But I can't remember what."

"Human by Christina Perri."

"Geez do you relate to that song..."

~FLASHYBACKY~

Grian walked outside of the palace as it was pouring heavy rain one day. He was only eighteen, but he still enjoyed the rain. It was calming to him. Something about it just gave him tranquility.

Almost as if he was at complete peace.

His foot splashed in a puddle, he held out his hand and felt the rain drop onto it and sighed.

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that's what you want
Be your number one

Each line had a small pause between each other. He saw one of his memories when he was a child out in an open field. Alone, scared, covered in blood from the wrists down. Grian subconsciously rubbed his wrists as he continued singing.

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

The memory disappeared as he sung the bridge.

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

He turned around quickly swinging his arm as he did so.

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I'm only human

On the second line, Grian fell to his knees, the water on the pavement splashing up with the impact.

Then another memory. His head glanced towards it as his tears mixed with the rain. It showed three Watchers. One holding a bloodied weapon.

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that's what you need
Be your everything

He remembered that he managed to get through some of the worst times as a child.

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

He stood, dismissing the memory promptly.

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
And I'm only human
And I crash and I break down

On the next lines he pulled his hands to his head, gripping his hair, then slammed them into his chest.

Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I'm only human

I'm only human
I'm only human
Just a little human

His wings flapped in the air keeping him steady and in one place before he took a shuddering breath, the rain water on the ground basically going in an outward motion when he flew.

I can take so much
'Till I've had enough

He slowly lowered himself to the ground, his voice breaking before continuing with the song and tears flowing with no sign of stopping. His heart felt as it it was breaking into a million pieces.

He knew someone had begun to watch him, but he didn't care.

Cause I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I'm only human

On the last line his knees grew weak. He planted his palms in front of him as he kept crying. Showing emotion wasn't something he had always done because it was beaten out of him at one point. He only remembered what they were when he realized the life he lived was wrong in every way.

A comforting set of hands laid on his shoulders.

~!!!~

Grian smiled at the memory, "That was the day you found me."

"Yeah. Do you remember the words you said to me that day?" Xisuma said in a whisper tone.

"No..."

"'I'm not a Watcher'."

"And I'm not.."

"You're better than a Watcher." Xisuma put his hand on Grian's heart, "You're human. And that's something Sam can't take away from you even after he tried killing you the other day."