Roommates & Soulmates

Ch185: Magnus's Truth

If Magnus hadn't heard the words come out of his husband's mouth with his very own ears, he never in a million years would have believed them. It still felt so unreal to him, that Alec didn't care where he came from. For so long Magnus had held the belief that he no longer deserved Alec, but without skipping a beat Alec had fiercely disagreed with him.

Even so, Magnus knew he didn't deserve such devotion, especially from someone so angelic as Alexander, but the universe seemed to be on his side today because whether he deserved Alec's unconditional love or not he had it.

They spent the rest of the day in each other's arms. Magnus listened to Alec's heartbeat, thankful like he'd never been before for this man's beautiful biases. He told Alec everything, and explained the events of going to see John in detail. Alec listened calmly enough, occasionally offering a hug or light squeeze of comfort, but never judgement. When he was done Alec only had one question.

"Have you asked your aunt about any of this?" Alec asked.

Magnus shook his head. "I was trying to ignore it."

"And since that worked so well," Alec chuckled. He sobered then and tightened his grip on Magnus before whispering. "I've missed you so much."

"I've been right here this whole time," Magnus explained.

"No you haven't," Alec replied. "You've been in sight, but never in reach."

"I'm sorry I upset you so much," Magnus sighed, feeling bad. "I didn't realize you were so worried."

Alec must have heard the guilt in Magnus's voice because he sat up in bed and turned to look right at Magnus before he spoke. "I'm sorry for dragging your father into our lives," he replied. "I guess I can be kinda naive."

"But that's one of the things I love about you," Magnus smiled at him, reaching forward to touch his husband's face. "The way you see the world is so hopeful. I would never want you to lose that because of me."

"I will have hope so long as you are with me," Alec replied with a smile and a kiss.

Magnus felt in his chest how Alec's words affected him. The warmth his man had created in his heart was like nothing he'd ever known. There was something about Alexander, something about the way he loved so completely, so honestly and openly, something that had the power to heal any wound and mend any hurt.

"I am yours," Magnus answered sincerely. "For as long as I live."

"No more silly thoughts about not deserving me?" Alec asked with raised eyebrows.

"Oh, I definitely don't deserve you," Magnus chuckled. "But that is not my decision to make, it's yours."

"I can live with that compromise," Alec replied cheerfully.

The look on his face made Magnus smile a simple genuine smile, and yet it felt like everything. He'd been going through the motions for so long it felt strange to smile naturally, strange and wonderful.

When the girls came home again some hours later, Magnus and Alec were still shut up in their bedroom. Alec, it seemed, was unwilling to let him go, and Magnus didn't mind. He too had missed his husband, though as he'd been so preoccupied with work and trying not to think, time had not felt so slow to him as it seemed to have felt for Alec.

"You should talk to your aunt," Alec said again when they returned to the topic. "Don't just take his word for it. For all you know he was lying. Call her and talk it out, or better yet use those vacation days and go see her."

"Yeah you're right," Magnus said with a deep exhale of breath. The idea had occurred to him before, but he'd been too scared to do it before. He'd known rationally that it could all have been lies, but even the lightest chance that it was true had held him back, but not anymore. Knowing that he had Alec no matter what made all the difference in the world.