the girl who lost things

part twenty-six

— jessie's pov
I grab my bags and load them into the car, and shut it. I walk into the house to say my goodbyes.

JJ and Will are at the door. I give both of them hugs. Finally, an escape. " be safe!" She says, waving me goodbye as I enter the car.

" Everything ready?" I nod; I'm just excited to get out of this place. He starts the car, and we make our way to the airport. I didn't eat breakfast, so I had to take my supplements.

I open my ensure and take one big gulp.
" how was everything back at the house?" He asks.

" it's ok."

" come on! Speak to me. It's going to make this trip. Ten times better! I promise." Derek was the only one I could relate to. He was the only person I've seen my mom blush over.

"I don't like living there." I blurt out with a smile. Finishing my ensure.

" yea, I know. But why?" I could list the reasons why for hours. But I shrug my shoulders. " you know why." he says, nudging my elbow.

I shrug even more. I can't tell him that his co-worker is acting like fix-it Felix or that I don't feel like my presence is wanted or feel like a burden to William LaMango.

" come on. Tell me." I pull out my headphones and turn to him.

" they have a family, a happy one. An innocent one. I don't want to ruin that by being mentally disordered." I say, finally letting a little slip out. He raises an eyebrow. I knew we were close to the airport.

" you don't want to be a burden to them." I exhale in relief, raising my hands.

" YESSS!" he and I both let out laughs. He parked the car, and we walk to our area.

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we get off the plane and wait for the car to meet arrived. I haven't seen Sarah and Desiree in so long, ever since my 8th birthday.

I grab my luggage and reel them. Opening another ensure while we wait for the car to come, everything was different here; everyone was more stand-offish.

The vendor brings the car towards us, and we make our way to the house. The sleep was overpowering me, so I decided to give in.

*dream*

I see him sleeping happily like he's an innocent man. Suddenly, a gun appears in my hand. 

"do it! Do it! It's so easy, and he's asleep. Get your revenge." a voice in my heads says. Now my hand is shaking with my finger trembling on the trigger. He deserves it. He deserves to go to hell. I don't waste another thought. I pull it. Blood and brain matter splatter in my face. I drop the gun when I notice someone moving in the bed next to him. I pull the covers down to reveal Emily. 

Why was she in bed with him?

" Jessie!"

"Jessie!"

*dreams over*

"Jessie!" I feel a shaking on my leg; I push the hand away with tears filling my eyes. It was morgan. I pull myself up; we were at a red light. I pull my legs up to my chest. Was Emily sleeping with him?

" was Emily, sleeping with him." I let out, looking at him with red eyes. a car honks behind him to go on. he pauses and pulls over at the side of the road. I ask him again. " was Emily sleeping with him?" my mouth quivers; I was covered in sweat.

He turns and looks at me with a nod. " it was a long time ago before you were even born." does he expect to make me happier. It just makes me want to kill him even more. 

But, I pull myself together. I've been showing to much emotion. I wipe my tears and stare straight at the rode. Morgan takes the sign and heads back onto the road.