A Dream Apart|TK

23. someone who doesn't exist

"pup, come here!" the alpha said, smiling brightly. taehyung smiled too, on his ways to run into his alpha's arms, when he felt someone grabbing his wrist.

the omega turned around confused, widening his eyes. "minjae?"

"baby... come to me."

a hand on his other wrist made the omega look up again. "let him go." taehyung saw his alpha's eyes shining red.

"he is my mate!" minjae hissed through gritted teeth and the alpha tightened his hold on taehyung's wrist, pulling him closer.

confused and scared of the situation, taehyung said nothing, which turned out to be a bad mistake.

"i'll kill you," minjae suddenly said, eyes also shining a bright red, that was nothing compared to the red in the other alpha's eyes.

both alphas let go of taehyung and started fighting, the omega could only watch, but once he saw his alpha getting hurt, he stepped into. "STOP!"

with a heavy breath, taehyung sat up, ignoring the sickening pain his twirling head caused. taking deep breaths, he tried to calm his inhales and exhales down, closed his eyes in the act.

brushing his hand along his forehead, taehyung wiped the small sweat pearls that had formed on it away.

once he was calm again, he quickly reached out for his phone and called jimin.

"baby, it's 6am, let me sleep an hour more." he heard the sleepy voice of his best friend and bit his lips, feeling guilty, but also relieved that he picked up.

"chim... i-it's not minjae."

that seemed to wake the older omega up, as taehyung heard hectic shuffling on the other line. "say what?!"

"i saw him in my dream... but my alpha was there too, so... it can't be him."

"that bitch lied to you." the shuffling continued and listening to jimin's voice wavering from time to time, taehyung guessed he was getting up. "you don't have to come over."

"nu-uh babe, i'm coming over for emotional support, before we enter that hell of a school today and show that bastard where things are going to." the sassy tone in jimin's voice was making taehyung giggle lightly. "i'm sorry— i should've known that the wolf in my dream isn't my mate. he doesn't exist—

"baby... don't jump to conclusions, you will find him."

taehyung sighed. "chim... i do believe in fated mates, seriously, my parents... my parents were fated mates, it explained the pain thingy, but... dreams? seriously? as if someone would have the same dreams like me." taehyung's voice was getting louder and tighter. "damn, pathetic much, right? i was so desperate, i fell into minjae's trap like a stone in water." a salty chuckle left his lips in the end.

jimin shook his head, stepping out of his house. "tae, calm down please. you're not pathetic—

"i fucking am chim. just fucking look at me! i fell in love with someone who doesn't exist and if he does— doesn't bother to find me! sometimes i don't even know what is reality and a dream anymore, chim, that's how pathetic i am, how desperate i am."

"tae i'm almost there don't say thing like that, you don't mean them, you're irritated." jimin speeded up.

thick tears were forming in taehyung's eyes, as he sat there on his bed, phone in hand, heart shattered, but at the same time beating wildly inside his chest.

finally, the omega started sobbing. "but... i was so desperate to have my alpha... i stuck to minjae even though i didn't feel anything towards him. he is nothing like my alpha, he is sweet and caring!" his shaking hand went to grab his pillow to clutch it tightly against his tummy. "i just... want to be happy, chim. i want to love and to be loved, is it too much to ask for?"

jimin's eyes softened. "taehyung you are loved. i love you, jin and joonie love you, even if yoongi doesn't show it, he loves you too. and... jeongguk... he loves you too taehyungie. we all love you so much, don't think like this, please."

sobbing to himself, taehyung nodded repeatedly. "i-i love y'all too, i-i feel like shit."

jimin chuckled. "you're no shit. open the door bub, i'm here and we don't wanna scare jinnie hyung to death, do we?"

mumbling a quiet 'i'm coming', taehyung tippled out of his room, cautious to not make loud sounds and wake up his hyungs. once he reached the door and opened up though, he couldn't stiffen his sobs anymore, when he looked at jimin and then hugged him tightly.

"shh, it's okay," the older omega whispered, patting taehyung's hair.

the fact that taehyung cried of his alpha wasn't anything new, he did this often when he questioned if falling for him was a good idea— if he will ever be able to handle being apart like this...

and it hurts.

"i-it hurts, chim."

"i know... let's get inside, you're still in your pyjamas only.

"minjae lied to me." taehyung told in the morning, namjoon and seokjin's eyes widened, but they didn't expect it otherwise.

"i'm so sorry, baby," jin said, hugging the small omega. "it's alright.. i'm gonna ask him to eat lunch with me and then ask him about this." surprised by taehyung's calmness, seokjin looked to his husband who shrugged.

"aren't you mad at him?"

"he is, but he won't stop giving himself the fault," jimin said.

taehyung looked away from his older brother. "babybro, it's not your fault—

"it is. i was so desperate to have my alpha, that i pushed my feelings away and didn't listen to them when they clearly told me that it wasn't him. he lied, but so did i...to myself."

namjoon sighed, sitting down next to taehyung on a chair, where he pulled the small omega on his lap. taehyung said nothing, just crossed his arms.

"tae, it's not bad to be desperate. you are in love, bear, we all act out of our minds when it comes to something like that. remember how i knocked on your door everyday just to spend time with jinnie, even though he kept pushing me away? i kept waking up earlier, just so i can see him. i was desperate too, desperate to see him, because i loved him."

jin smiled remembering everything clearly.

"you just wanted to be with the person you love, with your alpha and he told you that it's him." namjoon said, trying to hide how angry he actually was at minjae.

both of the older wolves were trying to contain their anger towards minjae, trying to in the first place be there for taehyung and to make him stop blame himself for everything.

"but, i—

"no, you nothing. tae, don't blame yourself." tears were now rolling down the omegas cheeks. "you did nothing wrong, it was all his doing."

the omega nodded. why wasn't he angry though? well he certainly was angry, but not of minjae, but himself. that's where his anger was directed to. himself.

"i will just try to talk to him about it today."