Silence says we remember, we remember

silence says we remember, we remember, chapter 9

Sorry that there looks a lot of writing, but as it's still the flashback, it needs to be in loads of detail so you know what is going on!!! Enjoy!!

Hannah xx

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Nathan's POV

It was two days before the tour and me and the lads had got home from rehearsals. We haven't been able to spend much time with our girlfriends as we have had to do loads of rehearsals. Max was taking Holly out for the evening, Siva and Jay were tired so they went straight to bed, and me and Gee sat downstairs with Hannah and Tom for a while. Hannah and Tom seemed to be getting on fine and we were having a right laugh, but then Gee fell asleep so I carried her upto bed and stayed with her up there, leaving Tom and Hannah downstairs. The next day we had a long day of rehearsals, so me and the rest of the lads had to be up early to leave. This was our last day of rehearsals before the first show tomorrow night. I saw Tom come out of his and Hannah's room and head downstairs as we had to leave in 10 minutes, he seemed grumpy. I walked into their room to say bye to Hannah, thinking that everything was alright between them. I walked in and sat down on the bed next to where Hannah was laying and I heard her crying. I asked her what the matter was and she spilled everything. Apparently after me and Gee went upstairs last night, Tom said to Hannah that she looked tired and that she should go to bed, but Hannah said that she wasn't tired and wanted to spend time with Tom because she hadn't seen much of him and Tom said that he didn't mind if she was tired and wanted to go bed, but she didn't. Tom kept going on about it and it made Hannah upset, which lead to her crying and coming upstairs to go to bed. She thought Tom would follow but her didn't. And she woke up this morning and he still wasn't there in bed with her, but she could hear him coming up the stairs so she pretended to be asleep. However, Tom started nattering away to her trying to wake her up, so she woke up and listened to what he had to say. Hannah said that she kept saying that he was sorry and that he should have just listened to me but he likes to get his own way and all this nonsense, so Hannah said well seeing as you like getting your own way, this is why we have so many arguments coz you never agree with what I say, and Tom then went off on one saying that it isn't his fault (basically arguing back) and Hannah got upset,was really close to tears and said to Tom, "I don't think this is going to work anymore Tom" then started crying. That is then when I saw Tom come out of their room, grumpy. I asked Hannah if she wanted me to stay with her for the day but she said no as she had Holly and Gee. When we got back from rehearsals, the girls were downstairs playing on the Wii, so obviously Tom saw them and tried to say sorry to Hannah, but Gee told him to leave it as she was done with him. He got in even more of a strop and stormed upstairs. Later that evening, Gee had to leave for the night to go bcak to her parents house before she came on tour with me so I let Hannah sleep in my bed and I would sleep on the sofa but she insisted that I was there with her. She fell asleep almost straight away but I couldn't get to sleep. After I had just fallen asleep, Hannah started crying and screaming and beating the pillow, so I quickly put my arm around her and tried to get her to calm down before she woke everyone else up! She said that she had a sudden vision of Tom which scared her and made her wake up screaming. She fell back asleep again, but her waking up and screaming became a routine throughout the night. It got to 7 o'clock and she was awake crying softly. She saw that I was awake and sitting up, so she scooted over to me so that she was leaning against me and I had my arm around her shoulders. Today was the day of the opening show of the tour and I could tell that there was gonna be so much tension between some of us. Holly and Max came into my room and Holly gave Hannah a huge hug, which cheered Hannah up! And Max was getting excited about doing our first proper tour!! Hannah asked if she was still able to come with us, and me, Max and Holly all answered that of course she could!! Then Max pipes up with the fact that she will be able to see Lawson again and that really cheered her up!!! I will let her carry on explaining what happened that day.

My POV

It was the first day of the lads tour and I was well excited!!! I get to spend all day with my best mates and I get to see my Lawson Lads later!! Me, Holly and Gee spent most of the day packing for the tour. We didn't have to try to avoid Tom as he was trying to keep out of our way. Later that day, we arrived at the venue and went in the back way. Nathan had told me and the girls to leave our stuff in the car for now and explained to me where Lawson's dressing room was when I need to go and see them!! Obviously I ran straight there when we got into the venue and knocked on the door. Adam answered the door and let me in, whilst hugging me! Andy came over to close the door and hug me then Joel came running up and picked me up and swung me around!! We went and sat on the sofas, me on one with Andy, Adam and Joel on the one opposite me. I asked where Ryan was, but they didn't get time to explain coz he walked through the door, suprised that I was sitting there!! I ran upto him and threw my arms around him, giving him a massive hug, which he returned. His hug seemed to last longer than the other lads' ones but oh well!! Me and Ryan went and sat on the sofa that I was originally sat on and Joel asked how I was. That was when the whole story came flooding out again and I was in tears by the end of it. Ryan wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a hug. Someone knocked on the door and walked in, it was Nathan. He looked at me and smiled and said that everything would be alright, I jolly well hoped so then!! He said that it was 10 minutes until Lawson went on stage so I went with Nathan and stood at the side of the stage, watching. Between every song when they were chatting to the audience, Ryan would look at me and smile as if to say everything will be fine. When The WANTED went and performed, I stood at the side of the stage with Holly, Gee and Lawson, with Holly one side off me and Ryan the other. When the lads had done 2 songs, they chatted with the audience for a while and this was when Tom decided to tell them that me and him had split up. I knew he was gonna do it and I felt like walking away, but I held strong and stayed and I managed not to cry this time, until everyone went "aww", then it was like the floodgates had opened. Holly hugged me from one side and Ryan hugged me from the other side. When I had stopped crying, Holly and Ryan let go off me, but Ryan left his arm around my shoulders which I didn't mind. When The WANTED had finished and said goodbye and everything, they had a little party in their dressing room, which Lawson were invited to obviously!! Me, Holly, Max and Ryan were all sat on one sofa chatting and I was getting a bit sleepy so I leant on Ryan and he put his arm around my shoulders. Unfortunately, Tom saw and came over and had a go at me and Ryan. Nathan came running over just as Max stood up and pushed Tom away. Nathan then had a go at Tom for basically saying that I couldn't spend time with Ryan and that Ryan shouldn't be putting his arm around me. After Tom had settled down and gone to talk with Adam, Nathan and Gee joined us and we all had a right laugh for about 2 hours!! Nathan asked Ryan if I could sleep on their tour bus tonight as it would be easier for all of us, and Ryan agreed, so me and the Lawson lads went back to their tour bus and went to bed. Ryan offered me his bunk but I said I would be alright on the sofa. Half way through the night, I woke up crying just as Joel walked in to the living area bit of the bus. He came over and hugged me and then went to wake Ryan up. Ryan came crouched down by my head and wiped away my tears. Joel went back to bed and Ryan said he would stay with me for a bit longer. I sat up so he could sit down next to me on the sofa and he did but pulled me down so I was laying down, with my head in his lap. We talked for a little while until he started playing with my hair and I fell asleep.

I stayed with Lawson on their tour bus for the rest of the tour and I didn't speak to Tom for the rest of the tour.

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Hope you all enjoyed that!! That is the last bit of the flashback, so it will now go back into present day like it was before!!! Hope you are all enjoying it and please get people you know on here to read it, that would mean so much to me, coz I was always put down for my writing, and this has given me a confidence boost. Vote, comment, fan etc. and always, ENJOY!!!

Hannah xx