Don't Let It Break Your Heart

21: Take These Vows and Be Wed Part 2

To Louis, choosing the right outfit seemed to be a lot harder than it ever had been before, and here he was asking Zayn for advice on what he should wear to propose to Harry.  As he thought about it now, he wondered how he would even ask him. Would he do the standard getting on one knee or would he sit down on the bed to be close with him? He really couldn't believe that this was all happening. 

             "C'mon me arse looks big in this." Louis pouts turning to the mirror where his bum looked a bit thicker in the black tuxedo trousers. 

Zayn gave him a genuine smile, unable to speak because he just adored how Louis tried on nearly every suit in the store and was still not satisfied. He was so in love with Harry that it was obvious. 

           "I think it looks great Lou, don't get cold feet just yet, yeah?"

The fact that Zayn was so supportive of Harry and him well it gave him proper butterflies and he really didn't know what to say, so silence became his friend for the moment anyway.

He swayed his hips a little, taking in the length of his body from his hips all the way down to his feet. He would probably pull something together like he always did. After all, this was last minute, which he was really hoping for but looking on the positive side of things he was just glad he was here and able to try these godawful outfits that Zayn seemed to like so much. 

   "Which one looks better to you Louis?" Zayn smirked, soon holding up two different outfits. "You know it isn't me marrying Mr. Styles."

Louis nodded slowly, biting on his inner cheek as he finally made the decision to get the dark blue tuxedo and quite elegant sunglasses. Maybe those were just to look pleasing to the eyes, he knew since Harry was mute now, possible his other senses could be enlightened, like his eyes sight. Louis couldn't help but think of Harry now, his reaction, his answer, and Harry's mum taking his blessing with a smile. 

     "Ready to check out, Lou?" Zayn was beaming with happiness for his friend who had become in yet another retrospect of mind.

Taken back to reality Louis nodded slowly, and eventually set both items on the conveyor belt.

If Louis could turn back the time he used to have, he would. He thinks Harry would too. And he wonders if there were things that maybe should've changed. 

Should he have been friends with Harry longer, maybe things would've changed in the future , or maybe he would've been able to help him if he sat down and listened to him. 

Now the pain sunk in, Harry wouldn't be able to say the two words that he's been dying to ear his entire life. Well, he was being dramatic, but everything was so surreal, and he just wanted what every other couple got.  Why couldn't he have it? Money, love, and health. 

The three most important things to the majority of humans, now Louis would just settle with health. Neither one of them was in the best health, Louis honestly was letting himself go, just because he was having to let Harry go.

     "Louis, h-hey... what's wrong, why are you crying mate?"

They were back in the car now and were driving to the hospital, this was getting to be too much and there was nothing he could do. He couldn't hide the fact that even though he was marrying Harry, he was still sad, depressed really. 

    "H-hey... it's about to be a big moment for you yeah?" Zayn slowly dried his tears, soon stopping at a red light, and hoping that for the best things would get better. Don't cry okay?"

Up til now, Louis was unaware of what was going on, the car stopped in front of the hospital, and he knew without a doubt he was about to goof up the entire idea that only he came up with.