Learning To Deal

Knight In Shining Converse

Sometimes in life what you want most is taken from you. Sometimes you can't get it back while other times you have to suffer and see it in the arms of someone else. When my heart broke, my world shattered and I fell to pieces in a moment. I had to watch Billy tell someone else "It's you" and I couldn't take that. I couldn't take the pain of knowing that was once me... and I was too late because I didn't get it when he told me. Then my world really crumbled when I lost my job. Not only did I lose out on having Billy be more to me, I lost out on having a job that had been my dream for so long. So many things went wrong that day, so many emotions and hopes were crushed.

Now it doesn't matter, I'm going to get my job back. I'm going to make everything all better and even though I can't fix my broken heart, I can fix my broken spirit.

The texts and calls from Jeremy only got more desperate as time went on:

Jane- Gray has gone mad.. She's gone through ten assistance since you've been gone and she's completely overworked. You need to get here NOW. Nothing has gone right since you left.

Much love,

Jeremy

Jane-I really need a response. We don't know what to do here, Gray trusts NO ONE. There's a huge runway show and she's MIA. Jane?!

Jane- Where the hell are you? We need you, NOW.

Jane- Gray is withholding our pieces. DD will only fail if someone doesn't talk some sense into her! This is serious!

I can try; I can save Donovan Decker from losing its reputation in this industry.

Surprisingly I get a few texts from Billy but I ignore them, I can't let the heartbreak I feel for him control me anymore. This time I'm choosing my job over Billy. When I think that thought I begin to cry ugly tears as I'm driving to Donovan Decker. I'm leaving him behind, I'm letting him go. I let out a loud sob almost losing control of the car. I don't think I could ever let this boy go. I need to though because he has someone he loves and it isn't me anymore.

I arrive at the place I haven't been since my termination and all the memories come flooding back. I check my face out in the mirror and frown at the ugly red blotches sprinkling my face. I wipe away what I can of my tears and get out of the car and race into the building.

Before I even reach the door it is being flung open for me, "Jane! Thank god you're here!" Jeremy's English accent was filled with stress and has lost all charm. For some reason anyone that works here has an unknown desire to keep this name reputable. "Jane, are you alright?" He asked switching from stressed to concerned. "Yeah, I'm great. Where's Gray?" "Okay…" He says unsure. "She's in her cave right now."

We're rushing to get to the back where Gray's office is located and I look in through the clear doors to see a very not put together Gray. She looked ten times more tired than she usually did, her hair was a mess, and she was wearing.. I gasp. "Oh my god, Jeremy is she wearing-" He cut me off, "Jeans? Yes. I have never in all my time here seen Gray wear jeans." I close my hung open mouth at such a surprising sight and we walk in. Gray's scribbling a mile a minute on papers and erasing like crazy. She's ignoring her phone which is ringing off the hook and she looks so stressed out.

"Gray, Jane's here. Let us help." Jeremy said gently afraid of the ticking bomb that is the woman before us.

"Get her out of my office, NOW!" She yelled. She didn't even bother looking up.

"Gray," I eased into the chair in front of her desk. "You need help. Let us help you." She looked up at me and looked like the tough woman I used to know was gone. She has lost all the ridged edges of her personality and in its place is a hollow, burned out person.