The Power Within: A Rose Full Of Emotions

15. The Lake of Anxiety

As the shock sets in, Everyone looks at me. I hate when people look at me. I hang my head once again trying to concentrate so I don't start freaking out. I have to rock back and forth slightly to keep my cool.

When Jack opens his mouth I quickly give him a glare that turns everyone's eyes to him and he shuts his mouth. I say in a calm but breaking voice, "Someone better fucking help me or I swear..." As I was saying this I didn't realize my eyes glowed purple and I had venom in my voice.

I closed my eyes to settle my nerves and to feel the peaceful blackness I felt time and time again when I was trapped in my brain.
But nothing was helping. I was frozen but my mind wouldn't stop telling me untruthful things.

You won't make it. There's no way you're gonna make it. They won't save you. They don't care about you like you do them. You don't know them. Shit, you don't even know your own mom. Now that's sad.

You know, you may be alive now but when your gone, I bet no one will care.

No one. Will. Remember. You.

The last thoughts always hit the hardest.
I can't take it. I need it to stop. I need to stop thinking. I try anything to make it stop. I try hitting my head and then I start screaming, "Shut up!" I scream as loud as I can with no other thought of how others will see me.

I dont even think anyone saw me cause they were to busy covering their ears from me scrambling their brains with my screaming. I didn't even know I could do that.

My vision was purplish and I had x-ray vision once again when I screamed. I saw horizontal waves of purple energy come from my eyes and I'm sure the others saw it too.

"Andrea, stop!" I heard someone say and I saw a beautiful river, with a dock and the sun setting in front of me. It felt like a movie but it felt so real to me.

I heard my name again but this time it was fading in. They say it once again but I'm mesmerized by the beautiful scenery.

I finally decide to listen and say, "What. Why am I here!? What is going to a fucking pretty stream gonna do for me!?" I turn around and everyone's standing behind me but Luke is a couple steps in front of them.

I can't look at them so I just turn back around and stare at the River. Looking at the shiny water flowing to my right gave me some satisfying feeling and I was starting to calm down a little.

"Andrea-", someone said behind me but I had a feeling it was Jack by the tone of his voice. "My name is Andi." I said still not looking away from the water.

"Okay...Andi. Are you ok?" He walks up beside me and I still don't look at him but I whisper, "Do I look okay to you?"

He doesn't say anything else. I pull up my red hood and start walking, Jack has the audacity to ask where I'm going but I don't answer him. I physically or mentally can't talk. I can barley think right now so I need to go on a walk.

Once I reach another spot near the water where there is no sound except the stream flowing, I sit down and think back to all the memories I can remember. When my mom was alive, When I was with my step dad, When I went to my dance recitals with mom, Meeting Mary and Amber, Meeting the Mayfield's, Meeting Lizzy, Meeting Jack.

It all seems so...unreal. I feel like I'm not really here. I'm here but I'm not really here.
I hear a branch crack and I quickly turn around, almost falling in the water.

I see Luke standing a couple yards away. I could see him perfectly clear. He was wearing different clothes. That makes sense given I was out for over 2 years, or 3 months in our dimension.