The Power Within: A Rose Full Of Emotions

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As I finish putting saran wrap on the food and put them in the fridge, I notice Jonah standing there, in deep thought. He has a sad look on his face. I walk back over to him, and lightly touch his arm to get his attention. When he looks back at me, he has his full attention on me.

"You okay? You looked a little sad..." I say. He gives me a nervous smile and looks down at his feet. "Uh yeah, I'm fine. I was just thinking about uh, w-what we were talking about earlier." He says with a nervous laugh.

I knew he had anxiety but I didn't think he would be this nervous when talking about us. He wasnt nervous earlier. Maybe he's nervous cause he knows the others could see us.

As we stand there in silence, we glance at eachother every once in a while though. He still looks nervous. I wonder what part he was thinking about earlier. Proabaly the part where I jumped in his arms twice. That was so stupid of me, I didn't know what I was thinking, literally. I just wanted to be close to him in that moment.

Suddenly Jake, Amber, Luke, Andi, and Jasper go to their rooms saying goodnight on the way. As we wave everyone goodnight, we go ahead and turn the kitchen light off and head upstairs quietly.

When we get to his room, I sit on his bed as he closes his door. He stands a few feet away from me for a couple minutes before he comes and sits next to me on his bed.

He stares off again and bites his bottom lip. Why is he so nervous? I can see his hands are shakey, he keeps wiping his hands on his jeans, and his leg is shaking. As I lay my hand on his knee, he crosses his legs and leans his head in his hands.

When I rub his back, I can feel his heart beating- wait WHAT!? I THOUGHT HE DIDNT HAVE A HEARTBEAT!? As I jump up from the bed, he looks at me surprised.

"Jonah...you have a heartbeat." His eyes widen. "What?" He quickly puts his hand on his chest and I can see the excitement on his face as he looks at me. "I'm alive...I'm alive, IM ALIIIIIVE!!!!" He says quiet at first and then gets to yelling. "WHOOHOO! OH MY GOOOOOD! I HAVE A HEARTBEAT!" He says screaming down the stairs as everyone gets out of their rooms, hella confused.

I start laughing at how excited he is. "I have a heartbeat." He says to Jake, jumping up and down with wide eyes and a wide smile.

"I've noticed." Jake says, giving Jonah an indifferent look. "I'd thought you would be more excited. You just look pissed off." Jonah has calmed down significantly and now has his brows furrowed and is more quiet when he speaks. "I would be if you wouldn't have woke everyone up. Dude, I'm happy for you but you need to keep it down. You get too excited."

"Okay." Jonah says as he walks back up the stairs without another peep. He looks like he doesn't care but Jake knows he hurt Jonah's feelings. "Jonah, wait, I didn't mean it like that, man." Jake says as he closes his eyes and leans his head on the doorway to his room.

When Jake tries to make his way up there to apologize, I stop him. "I'm no mind-reader but I think he wants to be alone for a while...I know it's none of my business but..." I say quietly. It's really none of my business because I'm not in their family but I do care about Jonah.

As Jake nods, Everyone goes back to their rightful rooms and everything returns to how it was, except Jonah is now locked in his room.

As I make it to his door, I lightly knock, no answer. I figured that. "Jonah?" I say, trying to be as quiet as I can. After a couple of minutes, I hear his door unlock and he appears as it opens a little so he can see my face. "You okay?" I ask. I can see his puffy and tired eyes and the way he can't look at me when he shakes his head no.