Didnt see it coming || Liam O'donovan

Chapter twenty-six

•Riley's POV

Fuck...it's happening again
I'm shaking and sweating as I lean over the sink trying to calm my breaths down but I can't,I fucking can't. I haven't had an anxiety attack in about two months now,I was improving but of course at 10am in the morning something inside me triggers it. I cant even go get my pills- I'm having a really hard time trying to steady my breaths I'll literally choke on them if I try and swallow them. I could ask Liam to go get them for me but I really don't wanna worry him and preoccupy him with this crap problem of mine.I look up at the mirror and see my face glistening in sweat and the dark shadows around my eyes making me look lifeless. I close my eyes and lean my head back as I try inhaling and exhaling through my nose and to kick those disgusting thoughts out of my mind. I slowly re-open my eyes and reach my shaky hands towards the tap and splash my face with water. I look back up and some of the redness from eyes are gone but I'm gonna have to steal some of Carmen's concealer to cover my dark circles. I literally feel like puking most of the time when I look in the mirror I dunno what drugs Liam is on that he's willingly with me. 10 min later and I exit the bathroom still not completely okay but at least I'm not showing it physically. I go downstairs and take my seat and notice that Liam's not there but I'm not worried,on Saturdays he's a sloth and I can't really blame him. I tuck into my food and help Nina with her drink and I finish after a couple bites since I'm really not in the mood for digestion. I get up to go back into my room and rot in bed when Tracy stops me "uh not so fast,you're on washing up duty."
"Ughh" I groan as I take the sponge from her and get started on the dishes. Wouldn't all that "emergency fund" money mikes been saving be of better use on a bloody dishwasher than being saved doing nothing and lazing about lifeless in a box. That money is hella lucky to have the privilege of having no life or soul or feelings inside of it. It's just dead paper from a dead tree.
"Wow Riley are you really jealous of a piece of fucking paper with the queens face on it and a random number with a £ symbol" says a voice in my head
"Yes,yes I am" I reply to it.
I'm continuing washing the dishes and thinking about weird stuff when I get startled as a pair of warm arms wrap around me from behind.
"Morning" he says in his hot as living shit deep morning voice. We've been together for months now and I still find myself going crazy at it.
"Morning" I hum in reply as I rinse the last dish
We just stay in that position not really exchanging any words and taking in each other's warmth when Frank comes in and says "Oi Liam come on you promised you'd come with me for the Meet and greet"
"Do I have too" he groans and I practically bite on my tongue to stop myself from screaming at how hot that was. Oh come on you'd be the same if you were in my place and heard that hot low growl and the way his neck veins stood out with it.
"Yes you have too" frank replies snapping me out of my sinful thoughts
"Fine" Liam rolls his eyes as he goes to his room to get changed
I go into the living room with the others and we sit down round the telly watching some girl called Justine Littlewood or whatever who's some estate agent talking about whatever when Tracy comes in and groans "ew god change the channel"
"Why,do you know her?" I ask
"Oh don't get me started" Tracy rolls her eyes
"Tracy's talked about her in her book" Gus says
"I haven't gotten round to reading the beaker's worst enemy part yet Gus" I roll my eyes
"But you've gotten round to reading 10 zayn malik fan fictions on wattpad in one week?" Saph sniggers as I throw a pillow at her
"Oi Liam do you know your girlfriend reads fan fictions on wattpad" Johnny says as Liam walks in
Liam looks him straight in the eye and says "I'm the one that sends her the fan fictions" and I laugh my ass off at the traumatized look on Johnny's face
"Frank still forcing you to go to that meet and greet then?" I ask
"Yep" he replies dryly as frank yells at him from the door to hurry up
"OKAY OKAY" Liam yells back as he says bye to Tracy,leans down and gives me a quick kiss (to which Elektra groans and complains "ew get a room") to which we both tell her to shut up and he leaves and heads out the door with frank.

•Liam's POV
30 seconds after we leave I realize that I've left my phone and I tell frank to wait as I cross the street to go get it,but forget to look both ways

•Riley's POV
30 seconds after they leave,I notice that Liam's left his phone on the table and I quickly grab it and get up to run after him and give it to him,but I see him coming over,seems like he realized he's left it. But my heart drops as I scream "LIAM LOOK OUT" as he looks up a second too late and I feel my the world leaving beneath my feet and my soul crack as the car hits him and he drops to the floor...