Didnt see it coming || Liam O'donovan

Chapter forty-five

•Riley's POV

We arrived home just in time for dinner. Spending the afternoon alone with him doing what he loved most was amazing. Seeing his eyes light up and seem so at home and in his element when we were doing music,around music,listening to music,everything being music,was really heartwarming. He really loves it more than anything. An afternoon alone with him was enough to tune in the fact that my old feelings were returning for him,and i didn't like it. I didn't like it at all. We were done,we had gone separate ways and built our own lives yet somehow here I was in the exact same position as I was five years ago-being in denial over my feelings for Liam.

I guess when someone's saved your life,you can never fully fall out of love with them.
I spent the evening with Nina,then left for the hang out with my uni friends at around 8:40. Mike gave me a spare key since I'd probably arrive home when everyone was asleep (with the promise that I wouldn't drink too much). Which wasn't a problem,I wasn't one to drink too much or too often. I only ever really have two or three glasses when there's an occasion. I drove to the club and most of my friends were already there. I ordered a glass of champagne and sat down with them.
"Where's James?" I yelled over the loud music and dancing
"He's sitting at the bar,he hasn't really talked to anyone since we've been here"
I frowned-that was nothing like him,he was usually the life and soul of the party. I got up and went over to the bar,finding him with his head on the table.
I nudged his shoulder and he looked up,his eyes were red.
"What's the matter?" I asked worriedly as I sat down next to him
"Fred" he said simply
Fred was James' boyfriend. They'd been together for 5 months now,after James had been crushing on him all of last year. My eyes scanned the room and sure enough I saw Fred making out with another guy. I felt anger bubbling inside of me,the disgusting sick bastard. I got up to make my way over to him to give him a piece of my mind,but James stopped me.
"Let me-"
"No" he said in such a broken voice that made me want to tear Fred to pieces even more than I already wanted to.
I sat back down next to him and pulled him into a hug as he cried onto my shoulder.
"He never deserved a second of your love" I whispered as I rubbed his back
We stayed like that for a long time,until he had finally cried himself out.
"I'll take you home okay?" I told him as I helped him onto his feet
"No,its okay" he sniffed "I'll go home by myself"
"You're hilarious if you think I'm letting you drive while you're like this. Come on." I said and I gently pulled him along to my car.
I drove him to our uni flat,he was staying there over Christmas break.
We went upstairs and I unlocked the door,helping him to sit on the sofa.
"I'm gonna go get some whiskey" he muttered
"You stay here,I'll go get it" I said shortly,getting up and grabbing a bottle from the kitchen. The bottle wasn't even his,our friend Julia who was a wild party animal had left it along with a bottle of wine at our place. Finders keepers.
I poured him a glass of whiskey and myself some wine,and sat back down next to him. He swallowed it all in one go.
"Woah slow down"
"I just wanna drink till I forget" he mumbled,already pouring himself a second glass. I didn't say anything-I wasn't one for drinking away sorrow but I also wasn't one for getting in the way of people dealing with their grief.
I finished my wine and leaned back against the sofa
"So did he jus-"
"I don't wanna talk about it yet" he cut me off and I nodded
"Distract me" he said "how's your break been going"
"It's been amazing" I said "I gave in and recorded the song today"
"For real?" I nodded "Who sang it?"
I hesitated before answering "a friend"
"That friend being...?"
"Liam."
He looked surprised,I couldn't blame him
"Liam as in your-"
"My ex boyfriend yeah"
"How did that happen?"
"He's also staying at Elm Tree over break and we became friends again"
"How-"
"Long story James" I cut him off,pouring myself another glass of wine
"You suck at distracting"
I looked at him and sighed,before telling him the whole story. I took a lot more than a few sips of wine during this,and by the time I was done I felt a bit dizzy.
"Want me to tell you something?" He asked
"Go ahead"
"You still have feelings for him""
"I know."