Fly Away To Chicago (Completed)

Chapter Thirty Two- Darkest Secrets

** Take a deep breath before reading this chapter. Zack's secrets are darker than you might think. I hope this doesn't change how you all feel about him. He really does care about his friends and everyone involved.**

I couldn't believe what Zack did to Tyler.

I mean, how could he? I know he was drunk, but he had to know what he was doing. Why wouldn't he just tell Tyler what happened? It's better than Tyler suffering, right?

That wasn't the only secret I hadn't heard. He had many. Each one he told me got worse and worse.

I never would've guess Zack had previously been addicted to pills or that his ex girlfriend had gotten pregnant.

She'd miscarried, which is awful.

Or any of the other things he'd told me.

I felt terrible for Zack and Tyler & everyone.

Each secret brought a new burden on me. It was yet another thing I knew that everyone didn't. If thought it'd be fun, but in reality I hadn't wanted to know.

I was kidding myself.

I was never ready to fully accept Zack. I just wanted to seem like I could handle it. I wanted him to trust and like me. I wanted friends.

I got so much more than I'd bargained for.

He's finally onto the final secret, which he's promised to be the absolute worst.

He said if I didn't want to know I had a choice of to not know, but after everything he's told me, he would most like to tell me this.

Apparently it's the one he's been most worried about. I guess telling me will help relieve some stress or something.

I just want to be a good friend.

I sigh & look into Zack's deep ocean colored eyes. "Tell me." I murmur & he begins.

"I'm not sure if you'll think this is worse than what I did to Tyler. I still think it's a bit worse though. I'll tell you what it pertains to and if you don't want to know tell me to skip this one. Okay?" He asks, looking into my eyes & I'm scared by how much they've changed.

He seems even more nervous than before. Oh god. Do I really want to know? Yes, I do. Zack is my friend. I'll have to accept all he had things he's done & love him for who he is despite it all.

"What is it?" I ask quietly.

I'm not going to deny that I'm scared. I really am. It could be terrible. It could be something I'll regret wanting to know.

"Oh, God." He sighs, looking away from me & I see the pain in his eyes.

He doesn't want to tell me.

"Ok, fine. It happened while you were dating Ty. It was an awful thing, but if you really, really want to know I'll tell you." He says & I wrack my brain to figure out what it could be about.

Tyler and I only dated for a week or so. It's a short time span so what could this be.

"Just tell me." I mutter, eyes downcast.

I can't watch him go through pain to tell me something this terrible, whatever it is.

"Well, it was the night Kenny left." He begins and I suck in a deep breath.

Nothing about that night was good. Kenny left, I almost had sex with Bennett, Mason saw me half naked, & probably a lot more.

"I guess I was jealous, or something about your relationship with Tyler. He was my best friend & he barely spent any time with me anymore. I wanted to ruin your relationship." He says and I can barely breathe.