Gucciana
"Mom, saan ka pupunta para sa vacation? Kasi ako, susunod ako kay Agazhe doon sa La Fuerte. Pupunta kami doon by next week," pag-kwento ko kay Mom. We have a two-week vacation
In my first week, gusto ko na dito lang ako sa mansion... And for the rest of the days, gusto kong pumunta doon sa place ni Agazhe. I want to spend my vacation with him.
Being with Agazhe is not a boring thing to do. Kapag siya ang makakasama ko, alam ko na ang dami naming magagawa.
I'll make myself busy... I don't want to be like this anymore. This won't do anything good to me.
Napasulyap ako sa Mom ko, kumukunot ang kaniyang noo. She looks shocked, with a little bit of confusion. "Kailan mo ba nakahiligan ang pumunta sa farm, Gucci?" My Mom asked, I can hear in her voice that she was still confused. Amusement was also painted on her face. "But that's good, na nakakahiligan mo na ang pumunta sa bulubunduking mga lugar."
"Mom, it was Agazhe. I wanted to be with him. Gusto ko na kung saan si Agazhe, ay nandiyan rin ako," paliwanag ko kay Mommy. Nilunok ko muna ang nginunguya ko bago ko ipinagpatuloy ang mga sasabihin ko.
Mahirap na, baka madulas ako at masabi ko na kila Mom ang totoong nararamdaman ko... That I'm not fine. I'm missing something that I can't explain what is it.
"Mommy, what if we throw a party for his graduation." Dagdag ko pa.
"What are you trying to say? Maybeyou like Agazhe, Gucci?" Singit ni Kuya Eiross, inaasar ako.
I rolled my eyes.
"What if I am?" Hamon ko. "Yeah, I like Agazhe. I like him more than anything else. More than my Louis Vuitton bag."
Sabi ko at saka ngumiti. Yeah, I am that confident na sabihin sa kanila. Hindi naman masama itong sinasabi ko, para mahiya sa kanila. Kasi ang totoo, hindi ko naman talaga gusto si Agazhe, eh.
"What do you think, Hon? Our daughter is really getting old. Gucci likes Agazhe, what can you say?" Sabi ni Daddy kay Mommy.
Pati nga si Daddy ay inaasar ako. After what happened to us few months ago, I'm close with my Dad now kaysa kay Mom.
That's why my Dad is very supportive to me all the time.
Kahit na wala naman akong ginagawa, supportive parin si Daddy. Kahit na matulog lang ako buong magdamag, ang supportive parin.
"Gucci is old enough, alam na niya ang ginagawa niya. I don't doubt. I trust our daughter," lumingon sa akin si Mom. She smiled.
"I think, Agazhe will be the perfect guy for you, Honey. Mas gusto ko si Agazhe kaysa doon sa mga naging boyfriend mo." Supportive ring pagkakasabi ni Mom. Tama ba itong mga naririnig ko? That my Mom is supporting me with my own love life, right now? Kasi si Mom, never siyang naging supportive sa akin when it comes to me having boyfriends. Si Dad lang 'yong supportive sa akin. Damn, Agazhe is really that lucky. Ang supportive ng family ko when it comes to him.
"You're too young to have a boyfriend, Gucci. Is being single, will be the cause of your death?" Kuya Damien asked. Umangat pa ang gilid ng kaniyang labi, he was judging me. "Yeah! I need Agazhe so I can live on," sarkasmo ko rin kay Kuya. Napangiti lang si Kuya Damien doon at umiling-iling. Pagkatapos, nanatili parin siyang nakatitig sa akin, he's still judging me.
"You're really a bully! I don't know, bakit ikaw 'yong favorite kong kuya!" Sabi ko at saka ngumuso. Tsh, parati lang niya akong inaaway. Nakakainis. "Oh, that's offending Gucci. Hindi kita binubully, bakit hindi mo ako favorite?" Kuya Eiross asked, kunyari pang nagtatampo. "Because malandi ka, Kuya, e. Nagiging girlfriend mo talaga, halos lahat ng kaibigan ko.
"Congrats, hijo, ah." My dad greeted Agazhe.
He just came home from the training. Natapos niya 'yon... I don't know what to feel, should I be jealous or what?
Nagsmi-smile lang ako while my parents is giving Agazhe a compliment. He looks so different right now, naging mas maskulado siya. Naging tan. Tumangkad at talagang lumaki.
We're in my room now.
I sat quietly, listening to Agazhe's story. He told me about the training, about how hard it was without me. About how his friends missed me, and how they would often talk about me.
I'm happy that he survived there! Konti nalang talaga, gagraduate na siya!
"Gucci, I have to tell you something," Agazhe said, his voice low and serious. "Hindi naging madali sa amin ang pag-alis mo. We missed you so much. Lalo na ako, nabigla ako nun. Walang araw na hindi kita iniisip."
I smiled, feeling a warmth in my heart.
"I missed you guys too," I said. "I just focused on my own goals so that I won't realize how much I would miss you all."
Agazhe continued, telling me about the struggles they faced without me. About how they had to work harder to keep up with the training, and how they would often get discouraged.
But despite the challenges, Agazhe said that they had grown closer as a team. They had learned to rely on each other, to support each other through the tough times.
As Agazhe spoke, I couldn't help but feel a sense of pride. I was proud of him, of how far he had come. And I was grateful to have him as my friend.
"I'm glad you're doing well, Agazhe," I said, smiling at him. "I'm proud of you."
Agazhe smiled back, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "Thanks, Gucci," he said. "I'm proud of you too."
Nagkatitigan kami sa mga mata, iwas na iwas pa si Aga. Parang hindi niya kayang titigan ako sa mga mata.
"Attend ka ng graduation ko?"
"Me?! Why?" Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako. It should be his family or someone so very close to him.
"Gusto kong nandun ka, eh."
"I'm really sorry ha, baka hindi ako makapunta." I bit my lower lips.
Pero hindi siya na-disappoint. Walang bahid ng lungkot. He just smiled. Parang tanggap na niya even before I said it.
I don't want to attend not because I don't want too... I just don't want to see her.
That's it.
just don’t want to see her.
That’s it.
Pero ayoko ring aminin na coward ako.
Hindi ko alam kung tama bang hindi ko siya suportahan just because may General na andun. Pero how do I sit there, smiling, clapping, knowing na just a few rows ahead, she's breathing the same air as mine? Acting like we didn’t almost burn the whole world down between us?
To be continued...
