De Villiere #2 : Pointless Days

Chapter 32

Chapter 32

Gusto ko tumakbo, gusto ko umiyak sa sobrang sakit nararamdaman ko. I couldn't imagine, that I would be insecure and hurt about this. Iniisip ko palang, na ganito sila. Ganito pala sila kasaya.

I don't want to ruined their fucking marriage, pero paano ang anak ko? I want to give what she wants and what she had been looking for. Pero, paano? Paano ko sasabihin sa kaniya?

I frustratedly groaned inside me, my heart is still goddamn heavy. My eyes heated, I bit my bottom lip. My hands were holding the steering wheel of this car. I walked out from them while my hands are in fist, earlier.

Samantha..

Why?

"Mommy-"

"Mommy's love you so much, anak.." pilit kong hindi umiyak sa kaniyang harapan. She just smiled at the screen, looking so happy of my sudden face time.

"I love you so much too mommy.." she said sweetly.

"I will promise you baby, makilala mo rin ang daddy mo.. Can you wait baby? Mommy's having a difficult time, but I promise hindi ito mag tatagal at makilala mo rin ang ama mo,"

"Mommy! It's okay lang po.." she smiled sadly. "Maybe daddy's don't love me, that's why he doesn't want to meet me-"

"Anak.. d-daddy loves you, okay?" I shuttered. Nanlamig ang aking buong katawan, mas lalong bumigat ang dibdib. Staring at her right now makes me weak. She's.. so sad. Kahit 'yang mga ngiting 'yan, ay nagagawa niyang pekein.

She sighed, heavily. Forcing herself to be okay infront of me. God knows, how much I wanted to hugged her right now.

"O-okay po, I will wait mommy. I p-promise.."

"How 'bout your school anak? Do you get a stars again?" I cheerfully asked her.

Her face changed into a happy one. "Yes mommy! I have three on my wrist po! Tignan mo mommy!"

She see her wrist at me, on the screen, smiling from ear to ear and confidently. "Teacher said, that I'm correct!"

"You're so good baby.. mommy's proud of you!"

"Thank you mommy! I love you!" She even kissed the screen. Tila may haplos sa aking dibdib at nawala ang pag kabahala. She's only one who can do this to me, she's my comfort, she's my angel. Wala na akong mahihiling pa. I love her so much.

After that, we said our I love you's together before she ended the face time call. Kailangan niya naring matulog, dahil may klase at kailangan niyang mag pahinga.

"Aki.."

Kumurap kurap ako at nilingon si liam. His brows furrowed a bit, ngunit nawala rin iyon. Bumuntong hininga ako. Pag katapos lang ng tawag, hindi ko na naman maiwasang mag isip. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko, hindi ko na alam kung saan mag sisimula.

"Did you already talked with him?"

He's referring miguel.

I sighed heavily. Pinikit ang aking mga mata. Ayokong sabihin sa kaniya, baka pilitin niya akong pauwiin ay isipin na wala ng patutunguhan 'yung pag punta ko rito. We will never know what will happen next.

"Let's not talk about him. I'm so exhausted at work.." I lowly said and stood up.

"Aki,"

I glanced at met his eyes.

He smiled. "Wanna drink?"

A smile formed into my lips. I chuckled a bit and shook my head, agreeing at him. Muli kaming bumaba para gumawa ng snacks and beer in the can.