Feint (Royal Society #3) COMPLETED

Chapter Eleven

Chapter Eleven
Silver Light of Karma

Is this what they call Karma? Because I've earned something which should not be mine in the first place? Is that it? Is meeting Vini that bad that they would take away Sol from me? Is it that wrong?

Then why would they even let us meet in the first place if we aren't supposed to meet? Why would they have to make my feelings grow towards him if I can't be with him in expense of my sister?

Because I don't understand. Kanina lang kasama ko pa sa kwarto si Sol. She even ate breakfast with me and acted normal. Did I overlook the fact that she's doing all that because of her intention?

I looked at her side and stood up from my bed. Slowly, I went to her bed and sat on it. Her bed is fixed as if she really prepared for her departure. Pati mga gamit niya ay nakalagay na lamang sa isang box. I don't even want to open her closet because it will be empty.

Seeing her side of room, I now feel the emptiness of this room. It used to be lively and bright even though Sol is radiating with coldness. It was just so different now... so dull and empty.

Mabilis kong pinunasan ang luha ko nang makarinig ng katok. I've been inside the room for long. I didn't even notice the time passing by. I just went upstairs earlier like a robot upon seeing Sol's car leaving.

"Amara, it's me," Ate Hena's voice echoed outside before she opened the door.

And since I am in Sol's side I saw how she looked at my side and furrowed before transferring her gaze to where I am right now.

"Amara..."

I quickly stood up when I saw her approaching me. She looked awfully worried about me but I couldn't care less about her expression. I am too wrapped up with my emotions.

I want to ask her to leave because I know if I said words I should not when I'm mad, I'll regret it.

"Leave me alone," I sneered. My emotions are getting out of grasp and I'm terrified that I won't be able to control it.

"Amara, I know you are mad but -,"

"Of course I am mad!" I shouted. "If I won't be mad right now, then I am most probably crazy. Because who wouldn't be mad at the situation?"

"Why... why does it sound like you are blaming me? I told you a hundred times already that it was her decision. She wanted to leave -,"

"But you permitted it! You don't even tried rectifying the situation or persuading her to stay."

"Stop cutting me off, Amara Luelle Nastia. Have you forgotten who are you talking to?"

I looked away from me and spoke in distasteful tone. "I thought I was talking to my sister. Turns out, it's the Queen of East Clan, the person I'm talking to," I said and bowed my head. "My apologies, Your Majesty."

"Amara! Why... why are you doing this to me? Hindi lang naman si Danae ang kapatid mo! I am your sister for goodness' sake! Why can't you see me?"

I brought back my eyes to her. "Is that why you agreed easily? You are jealousy of my relationship with Danae?"

"No," Ate Hena answered. "I wanted to be a responsible sister that would see the best choice for her."

"But it wasn't!"

"It is, Amara. Open your eyes and don't be selfish. We both know that Danae is not happy here. She wasn't ever since she stepped inside the palace. You know that... why are you denying that fact?"

Because I don't want to see it. No, I don't even want to acknowledge that reasoning. I would like to believe that Sol found her home... that she was happy.

When the truth is, she wasn't. This place suffocates her. She wasn't happy. She never felt the comfort. She was lonely.

"Amara, you aren't dumb. You were closer to her and I know you know her better. Stop denying yourself of the truth," Ate Hena said before leaving me alone.

Doon ko lang napansin ang pagkain na nilapag niya sa table. It was seafood pasta with garlic bread on the side. She knew this is my comfort food whenever I am down.

"You are wrong, Ate Hena. I'm dumb," I said and started eating the food she brought for me.

She cooked this. I know by the taste that she was the one who cooked this. The food cooked by the chefs here are delicious, no doubt. But I can easily tell that this was Ate Hena's. Not because it wasn't good but because it has the same taste of the food she makes for us.

People often mistake Ate Hena as our mother. Probably because our gap is a very long. If I am not mistaken we are twelve years apart. They even said it was a miracle that we are born given the age of our mother that time.

I looked at the door where I last saw Ate Hena. She denied it. But I know the underlying truth behind it. You don't have to be genius to figure it out.

Sol and Luna, the sun and the moon. We are inseparable, the reason why we are closer to each other. Aside from the fact that we are twins, sharing same face, we have the same age.

While Ate Hena is busy studying, we are busy playing. That makes our gap farther. And ever since our mother passed away, Ate Hena became sort of our mother. She took care of us, clothe us, taught us, and loved us like her own children.

That's why we are indifferent towards her because just like the usual mother-daughter relationship, there are things that better left unsaid. I wanted to maintain my untainted image to her eyes. I don't want to disappoint her. I wanted her to be proud of me, without knowing my rotten parts.

And that's how I grew my distance with her. She didn't demand for it but I know she also felt isolated. I wonder if this is my chance to make up to her? To show her that I can also rely to her.

Is this the reason why you left, Sol?

I stopped eating when I felt my phone vibrated. Thinking that it was Sol, I quickly opened it. But it wasn't her.

It was unknown number asking how am I feeling. I furrowed upon seeing the message. I don't give out my number easily.

I typed my message: Pardon?

This is Vini. I nearly dropped my phone upon reading the message. Of course it was him! How could I not remember him driving me home?

I didn't think about my next move, I called him. It took him four rings. Yup, I counted while mindlessly tapping my fingers on the table.

"Amara." I smiled upon hearing his voice. It was different. He voice sounded deeper than his normal one.

"I know it's late but I want to thank you properly. I was out of my mind earlier that I forgot about you and I want to thank you for checking up on me," I said, blabbering.

I heard his chuckle. "It's fine. You didn't answer my message though."

"Ah, yes. I'm feeling better now." Thanks to your concern, I feel alive. Just... how can this man change my mood easily?

"Hmm. That's good. I heard from my sister about what happened that's why I called you. Have you cried enough?"

I bit my lip to stop myself from smiling too much. "I did, kanina. My eyes looked puffy now," I joked but it was true.

He chuckled. "Amara. I know you may feel alone because you don't have your twin beside you but you are not, okay?"

I was about to say a reply when he spoke again which made my heart race.

"Because I'm here for you."

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Wasn't able to proofread this chapter since I really didn't plan on updating tonight. But I will, maybe tomorrow.