God, I hate You

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"well hello there pretty lady" the man whistled, eyeing me up and down carefully. i swallowed the salty lump in my throat and peered down at his hand which was gripping on to his gun. i shuffled uncomfortably, knowing that he could kill me before i even got the chance to reach for my gun which was strapped on to my thigh.

i stayed silent, realising that it was only him inside as the rest of the noise was outside.
"no need for that" he murmured, his hand touching my thigh and peeling off the holster. i froze at the unnecessary contact and stared at him, my voice frozen.
"you've got something which belongs to me and i'm going to have to ask you to hand it over" he said. holding out his hand, whilst the other hand held his gun above my head. i shook my head profusely and backed away, in the direction of the window. he sighed and began walking forwards.

"hand it over and i'll make sure that pretty body of yours doesn't get touched by my men" he murmured, tilting his head to look at me. my fear melted into anger as i swung at him, my fist crashing against his bearded face.
"fucking bitch" he shouted and his hands gripped onto my neck, pinning me to the ground. my hands clawed at his huge hands as i gasped for air.
"just give me the fucking thing" he shouted, i lifted my knee and shoved it harshly into his crotch. he groaned and let go of my neck, clutching onto his crotch. i panted and stared at the gun which lay on the floor between us, both of us noticing it and making it our goal.

we both slid for it, wrestling against eachother to get ahold of it. he head butted me on the face, causing my nose to erupt with blood. with that being the final straw, i used all my strength to knee him in the stomach. after getting ahold of the gun, he pulled another one from behind him and started walking towards me, i ran backwards and covered my face slightly as i smashed through the window. with the few seconds i had before hitting the ground, i shot the gun loosely in his direction and heard him shout a couple of times. bingo.

my back hit the bonnet of a car and i screamed from the sudden impact. bucky had seen the whole thing, the jumping and the falling. after sliding myself off of the bonnet, i stood my self up shakily. my legs trembling slightly and my back aching. i took a step forward and yelped out in pain, clutching onto the side of the car.
"what the fuck was that y/n?!" bucky shouted, attempting to help me walk which i rejected.
"pretty self explanatory" i mumbled as i limped towards our car. he cursed behind me and grabbed my hand, spinning me around to talk to me properly.

"you could've fucking died" he growled, shaking my shoulders lightly. i rolled my eyes and stared back at him with a deadpan expression.
"that's kind of the job isn't it?" i scoffed. he clenched his jaw, his fists clenched tightly together.
"just fuck off bucky" i murmured, he grabbed my arm and span me around again.
"jesus maybe i should've killed you instead, seeing how you don't mind dying" he spat angrily. i swallowed, my whole body shaking slightly from the amount of anger which was piling up inside me. his eyes widened as he realised what he had said, his mouth opening to say something before i interrupted.
"yeah you should have" i said sternly.

after turning around to walk back to the car, his hands grabbed onto my forearms, spinning me around so that he could speak to me.
"don't fucking touch me" i spat, a tear fell from my eye and he let go of me, dropping his head in shame as he followed me back to the car. the drive back was agonisingly silent, apart from the sniffles which came from my nose at times.

the second we arrived back at the compound, my emotions had unfortunately gotten the best of me as i shoved past him to get to my room. everyone turned around, their mouths dropped open and their eyes wide in shock after seeing my bloodied face and watery eyes. i threw the files gently onto the coffee table and walked quickly to my bedroom, closing the door silently behind me and sliding down onto the floor, my knees tucked against my chest as i let it all out.