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~Ji yong~
I cross the parking lot without looking back, his face is etched in my mind, it's the only thing I can think about. Everything keeps spinning around me, I manage to find my manager --- Mr. Kim go to the car and take the girl to her house --- he looks at me and replies --- But what about you? My obligation is to take you--- I lose my patience for a moment --- Do what I tell you !! ---
I manage to take a taxi, I get home, I feel such great remorse that it disgusts me, I run to the bathroom and kneel down to vomit, I expel all the alcohol and even more. When I'm done I sit there, unable to get up, I crawl into the shower and let the cold water fall on me and mix with the tears that come from my eyes.
After a while under the water I finally get out, I look in the mirror, I'm a mess. My bloodshot, puffy eyes, the makeup I was wearing has smudged. This is the face of someone who has made a mistake and doesn't know how to live with it. Looking at my reflection, I swear that something like this will never happen again, I won't see her again, I can't allow myself to hurt her again. Only if time manages to forgive me will I look for her again. I send her one last text message and delete her contact.
~Jennie kim~
Mr. Kim takes me, I don't say a word the whole trip and he respects my silence. I finally get home, go inside and lock myself in my room. Sitting on my bed with my arms around my knees, my heart is still racing. I can't quite understand what just happened. Everything was going very well, oppa and I shared a stage, and then… we kissed, it was great, but at one point it was not him, it was not the Ji Yong that I know. I had to stop him, if I didn't, I don't know how far he would have gone, I love him, he's my first love, but I'm not ready to go that far, it was his car and he wasn't himself. I just hope this doesn't mean losing him.
Before I go to sleep my cell phone rings, it is a message from him "Jennie, I am very sorry, something like this will not happen again I promise you, trust me one last time" Reading those words I understand that it is the way to tell me he won't see me again, I can't stop the tears start to come out.
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FanfictionKwon Ji Yong & Jennie Kim A young idol apprentice meets who would be from the first moment the great love and role model of her life. While, the great star that one day believed he had everything, realizes it when he looks at those sed eyes that wha...