draco malfoy imagines

Il n'est jamais trop tard 🥀

word count: 1422

house: slytherin

warning: tw: mentions of self harm and su!c!de so if you are not comfortable with this topic, please don't read this. they are just mentions like it was only said but if you are not comfortable feel free not to read

Also, if you need someone to talk to, my dms are always open and I'll listen to you. you are never alone, oki??

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Il n'est jamais trop tard -
people you know pt2

You were sitting in the Astronomy tower, you were hugging your knees as you watch the beautiful canvas of blue, pink, and purple paint with small splashes of white paint across the canvas. There were howling of wolves and the crickets chirping from a distance. The night breeze was sending chills down your spine but you cared less, for you can't feel anything at that moment. You wanted to focus on the shining balls of light that you see in the big canvas called the sky. The balls of gas that was probably from the past since it would take years for their light to reach your eyes.

You sat there in the dark, enjoying the view when suddenly, someone sat beside you. He was 3 feet away from you and he smelled like mint and green apples, and because of his perfume, you instantly knew who was the boy beside you and you don't have to glance at the boy to see who he was. He was hugging his knees as well He was the last person you want to see at the moment and yet his presence made you feel a little better. You had thoughts, dangerous thoughts inside your head and maybe, just maybe, he will change your mind.

"I knew what you did yesterday." he spoke, after a few minutes of silence between the both of you. You didn't reply, you just sat there, and continued staring at the night sky, trying to look for for your favorite constellation. You tried to think about what to reply to him, because you knew you have to speak to him. But you just can't talk and can't think of what words you will tell him, and what words are appropriate to tell him. "I hope you won't do it again, Y/N. You scared me."

You smiled sadly at the last words he said to you. You found it funny on how contradicting things were for him. He just told you a week ago that he finds you annoying, that he doesn't want to be around you, but when you tried to stay away from him, from everyone, he then told you that you scared him. What you did scared him, and he was asking you not to do it again. "Really? I scared you? But I promised that I won't annoy you again, I promised that I would stay away, I am just fulfilling my promise, Malfoy."

"But not in that way, Y/N. You don't have to do that, Y/N! You don't have to... hurt yourself just because I told you that you were annoying because I didn't mean what I said in our conversation in that closet. I was - I was confused in what I was supposed to feel because I care for you, a lot. And whatever I am feeling confuses the fuck out of me and it infuriates me whenever I can't figure out what all of this means. Please, just promise me you won't do it again."

"You are telling me all this just because I tried to kill myself? You are telling me all this because you feel guilty and don't want to feel responsible for my death? Please Malfoy, your words stung so much it hurts every night. I feel useless, I feel like a burden, because I annoy you. You told me those words as if you don't care about what I feel. I told you that I won't annoy you anymore, right? I just tried to fulfill my promise. And it would lessen your burden so you won't see my annoying  face anymore."

"I didn't mean it that way, Y/N -"

"Then you should've cleared it before bursting out into anger in front of me." you hissed, getting annoyed. "Then you should've told me in the first place so I can keep my distance from you. You should've told me that you were annoyed instead of ignoring me and treating me like shit. I would've understand what you are feeling. But what did you do? You ruined my dignity by embarrassing me in front of other students. You proudly made fun of me in front of your friends. You told me a lot of mean things that ruined me, Malfoy! You did so many things that broke my heart, that broke my soul, that changed my perspective on things, that changed how I see myself. My confidence dropped and I feel worthless, like a burden. And I hate that! I hate feeling that way. And you, you out of all people, you who I trust the most, who I cared for the most, will be the one who'll do those unspeakable things to me, its you who broke me, Draco Malfoy! And I am sick and tired of the those things. So, can you blame me?"

Draco was stunned, he was speechless. It was indeed his fault. He broke Y/N, a beautiful soul, someone who was there for him when he needed it the most. It was entirely his fault and he knew he can fix you. He wants to fix you, and he wants to make it up to you. He knew that it was never too late. He knew that there must be a reason that the gods above allowed Theodore and Blaise to save you that night, when you almost, almost, died. He knew that he was not too late to change things, to  apologize, to protect you from him. 

"I-I'm sorry, Y/N. And it's alright if you don't forgive me now but let me - let me help you. Let me fix the damage that I've done. Let me make it up to you because I want to show you that I can change, that I can fix you. Please let me make it up to you, give me another chance."

"Can you fix me, Draco?"

"Yes, just give me a chance. Its never too late, right?"

You were silent for a few moments, thinking about what to tell Draco. Will you forgive him and allow him to fix you slowly, or will you stay away for good, so you can make sure that you won't annoy him anymore. So he can have a peaceful life without you, so no one will annoy him any longer. These are the two decisions that resides in your brain at that moment. You are trying to figure out if you'll give Draco a shot to change or you will just choose to give up.

"Y/N? Please say something."

You didn't know what to say. You were still trying to figure out what to say. You trying to figure out a way out without you regretting things. But that is how life works. Somewhere down the road, you will regret things, you will come to a point where you will wish you could've change something in the past, something you could've done better. But just like the stars in front of you, you need to give something up just to shine, you have to let the past shape you, change you, and use that shinning new version of you. 

You closed your eyes and wished that whatever you will decide on that moment will make you okay, will fix you again and will turn you into a better person than you are now. You wished that you are not regret anything in the long run. You opened your eyes and you were now back to reality where Draco Malfoy is waiting for your response beside you. He was hopeful that you would give him a change, he was hoping that things are not too late yet. He was hoping that you will give his offer a chance, and he is hoping that you will forgive him because he really regrets the things that he did to you, the things that he said, the things that caused damage to your poor soul.

You removed your eyes on the starts above and turned to face him, and you saw his face again after a few days of avoiding eye contact with him because you somehow want to remember him as the kind Draco Malfoy that you know, not the monster that he become. You still do believe that he has some goodness left inside him, despite all of the terrible things that he did to you in the past few months. You smiled at him, and he also smiled, hesitantly, not sure what your smile meant. But that moment you knew, things are never too late.

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ciao alyunicorns! 

so I promised to publish this imagines yesterday but I didn't because of shit happening to me last Wednesday and yesterday and it really impacted me in some way that I suddenly didn't have the strength to write. Im sorry abt that.

Also, this story is a bit dark but I put a happy ending there so I hope its not too dark.

Always remember that you are not alone okay? you are not alone, and dont be afraid to ask for help or to rant about what you are feeling, because people who you trust will always be there for u. if you are not comfortable with speaking, you can always write what you feel :>> I love yall, dont forget to smile today, to drink water, and to wear your masks in public. 

i love yall <33

- Aly, Cole Sprouse's unitato dolphin bestie <333

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