Perfectly Imperfect ✔

Hopeful

(Jin's POV)

"Summer's pretty much here... in a few weeks anyway. Jimin wants to go to that new water park that opened up." Namjoon said as we were grabbing coffee.

"Sounds fun. I'm sure he'll enjoy it." I replied as we sat down outside the little café. The white metal table provided shade with the large umbrella that was sprouting up from the table.

"You should come, bring Lilly." Namjoon said as he stirred his coffee.

"Maybe, if she's up to it."

"How is she doing? It's been months since her first injection. She seems to be doing better." He asked, he was concerned for her and I appreciated that about him. Namjoon didn't fake his feelings, he couldn't. Despite his intimidating exterior he was absolute shit at hiding his true intentions and feelings.

"She's doing well, Doc wants to try another marrow transplant. There's a compatible donor ready, but he knows the last time they did one it was really rough on Lilly. However with her not feeling the random pains and the aches as well as her limbs going numb.... I think she'll do better this time around. Maybe it will actually work." I explained.

"So how's your relationship going? You didn't seem to be official last time we hung out." He smirked.

"Nothing's official... but I'd say we're definitely a lot more of a couple."

"Ooh, taken the next step huh? So she dazzled you with the new things from her shopping trip?" He asked, I gave him a confused yet curious look.

"What new things?" I asked him. Namjoon smiled and chuckled a bit.

"So, no sex yet then?" He ignored my question with one of his own... which seemed to knock the wind out of me for a moment.

"Excuse me.... What?" I was dumbfounded. "Joon, I don't even... I don't know if I... should take it there." I said as I tried to process what he was saying.

"What? Why? You're both adults, as long it's consensual there is no reason... unless you're trying to say you don't want a relationship with her like that. If that's what you're trying to tell me then we have bigger issues to discuss." Namjoon replied, looking a little confused.

"It's not... She's only known that hospital.. she's JUST now getting out and to see the world. I want her to see everything, experience so much she's missed out on. Sex, isn't exactly high on the list there though. I mean... I-"

"You want to care for her, be the one to show her so many things. All because you've fallen for her. However you don't want to push certain things onto her. Jin.. you're not seeing that it's okay to want an intimate relationship with her. You think you kissing her isn't making her think that it means you want an intimate relationship? Have you even asked her what kind of relationship she wants?" He asked me, I didn't know how to reply to any of them.

"So, I should talk to her then?" I asked, even though I knew the answer. Namjoon's opinion and advice mattered to me.

"Yes. You should."

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(Lilly's POV)

"And 3....2....1..." The needle felt like a small pinch. Only hurting for a second before leaving me feeling okay. "That's it, the last needle for you... well for now." The good Doctor said as he smiled and patted my head.

"So no more? Like... ever of these?" I asked.

"The pills we've had made will be in tomorrow. You'll be taking them orally from now on." He said as he scribbled on his clipboard. I assumed he's just writing down what time the injection was and if I'd shown any side effects.

"So, how've you been feeling? You've been staying out longer, anything feeling off?" He asked as he started to wrap my arm with the blood pressure wrap. Once it was attached he started the pump, the wrap started to squeeze my arm.

"Been okay. I've been trying not to walk around lots... and I stop for rests when out. Jin's been keeping an eye on me whenever we go out." I replied. "No unusual anything."

"Good. You know... some exercise, like walking... will help you. Just not too strenuous... like don't go trying to run a 3k. Haha." He chuckled a bit. "but there's some exercises that... well you can do, and there's no restrictions on certain physical activities." Dr. Kwon seemed to be looking at the floor a lot, and he seemed a little uncomfortable for some reason. Sowon was in the room and she was starting to giggle at him. I had no idea what was going on.

"Um... what?" I asked, completely clueless. Sowon busted out laughing, Daisy lifted her head from her doggy bed on the floor, looking at Sowon curiously.

"Sorry, this is not natural for me." Dr. Kwon said as Sowon calmed her laughter.

"No no, I'm sorry Doctor. Lilly, I think Dr. Kwon is trying to say that you've been improving and that if you were thinking of certain physical activities... like sex, you are in good enough condition to, well, go head with it." Sowon explained.

"I..." I shook my head, feeling slightly embarrassed. "Thanks.. I think. I'll keep that in mind if ever what to uh... do that." I replied, it was the only thing I could think to say without being too awkward.

"Okay good, now that the awkward moment is over... let's move on." Dr. Kwon said, forcing a smile. It was still a little awkward.

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"So he just out-right said you could have sex?"

"Yeah, it was a little weird. I mean, I don't even know... but more good news is that my pills will be in tomorrow. This morning was my last shot." I said with a grin. Kira was laughing at the other end of the voice chat.

"I'm sorry Lil, It's just hilarious. Wow.. that had to be a total awkward dad moment." She was still chuckling. "You should ask to spend the night here. This loft is pretty sweet, and waiting for you if you want to be my roomie." She spoke cheerfully.

"Aw, you moved in already? Your parents help you pick that one right? Isn't it the one with the wrap around balcony thing?" I asked her.

"Yup, two bedroom too. One and half baths, nice area too." Kira explained, she went over the layout, things she bought, things she still needs to get. I was happy for her, and a little excited to know she meant it when she said she wanted to be house mates.

"We should hang out this weekend." I said to her. I'd only hung out with her a few times even though we've been friends for years.

"Yes! You should come spend the night too, see if you like it." She offered happily.

"I should. I'll see if I can get the okay clear to stay the night. I'll let you know." I replied. She had some assignment to finish so we said our goodbyes and hung up.

After lunch I took Daisy out for a walk, not in the Garden but for a walk down the road. I was able to freely walk without someone following me to make sure I didn't have an issue. Daisy was with me anyway, she was trained and knew how to go get someone in case I blacked out or something.

The walk was refreshing and allowed me to clear my head of things.. things like wondering what Jin and I were, what would happen if I were to live with Kira, Could I go to college physically now? There was a lot on my mind..

There were so many possibilities now, so much to hope for and dream... and those dreams were looking like they were actually achievable now.. I could live... have a life. Maybe get a job, and sit all fancy at a café drinking a coffee while working on a paper for one of my classes... Having friends, going out dancing... all of it seemed within reach now.
I smiled to myself as I thought of these things, putting my dirty clothes in my hamper as I had come out of the bathroom after getting ready for bed. So many wonderful things... and then the room got fuzzy, slowly spinning, and then... it was dark.