Perfectly Imperfect ✔

Those We Love

(Namjoon's POV)

"Sorry we didn't go somewhere nicer.. I just... wanted somewhere close by." I said to Jimin as we took our seats in a booth in the back of this little café.

"What can I get you?" The woman who sat us down asked before Jimin could reply to me.

"I'll take an iced Americano and he'll have a Strawberry Milkshake." I replied without thinking. Once I realized I'd ordered for him, my eyes widened and I tried to take it back.

"I mean, if that's what you want." I did my best not to call him a pet name, he was my baby boy but not right now.. too much friction and uncertainty resided in our minds for that.

"That's fine. I'll take the Strawberry Milkshake." Jimin replied as he folded his hands on the table between us.

"Is that all?" She asked with a soft smile.

"A cute little chick cake please?" Jimin added. I should have known my adorable baby would want one... I was losing my touch it seemed. I nodded to her and she turned to go put our order in. I sat up straight and placed my hands folded in front of me like Jimin was doing.

"I've apologized enough to you for my behavior, for letting my anger show and at you no less. I only tried to ask that you look from my prospective, Jimin. I've known Jin a while, he made me promise not to tell anyone and yet I did confide in you. Jin knew I would, because he knows how much I love you and hate to keep anything from you." I tried to explain.

"You're more important to me than almost anything, but I cannot compromise who I am just to do as you desire. I get why you wanted me to tell Lilly what was going in. You're very empathetic to the emotions of others. It's one of my favorite things about you, love." He smiled a little at that.

"Really?" He asked shyly.

"Yes. Which is why I understood how frustrating my not saying anything was. You're very close to Lilly and both Jin and I are so thankful for that. You also need to understand Jin in this situation though. He didn't want to tell her because he didn't want to get her all happy and excited, only for them to not be approved to test this medicine on her." I stressed, keeping my eyes on him and watching his reactions to what I was telling him.

"She would have been thrilled, excited.. and if Dr. Kwon and Jin couldn't get the pass on it... they'd then have to tell her that they had to start over, run more tests, take more samples from her and... well she most likely would have been heartbroken. Ignoring her wasn't the plan exactly, he did text her when he could but because of the limited time he had, he didn't have a choice but to ignore her now and then."

"I understand... I just..." He paused, looking down at his hands till the woman came back with our drinks and his cake.

"You were just worried about Lilly's feelings, what she was going through. And I agree that Jin could have handled it better. He relied on her friends to keep her company, instead of taking a little bit of time... he also probably shouldn't have stayed at the lab every night, he could have brought her some things, given her a kiss and told her he had to be at work. I'm not agreeing that he did everything perfectly.. or even the right way. I hope you understand that."

"I do.... I know I over-reacted.. I just.. I care about both of them. Lilly was so heartbroken Joonie." He pouted, poking at the cute little baby chick cake. I smiled and took the fork from him, slicing into the cake I brought a fork full up to his mouth. He looked at me and smiled a little before he opened his mouth and closed it again around the metal fork. I grinned and watched him eat with a faint smile.