Perfectly Imperfect ✔

Healing Hearts

(Lilly's POV)

Days melded together in some weird hazy fog. I was sleeping a lot, not always by choice. My body ached, my toes and fingers felt alien to me. Like I could move them, I could feel what they touched but it felt... off. I just couldn't seem to stay focused either.

Tae was trying to be cheerful, as was Jungkook but honestly... I was starting to wonder if I should just give up this fight. I was tired, I didn't want to keep going like this. But I also didn't want let go of the people around me.

"Lilly, we brought you lunch." Jungkook smiled as he placed the food down on the tray and began to feed me. I was already sitting up and just staring off.. considering things.

Considering the end of all this.

"Here Princess, eat up. Till you're nice and full." Tae smiled widely, his mouth making that cute box-like shape it had before. I opened up, letting him feed me some extra beef from his own food. Tae took over feeding me the last bit of my food as Jungkook moved and ate his. I hadn't noticed they brought their own food as well till that moment.

"So how are you feeling today? You're sitting up right, so better?" Tae asked as I swallowed and thought about how to answer.

"Body pain... tired... not much else." I couldn't get all the words out but it was enough.. or at least I hoped it was.

"I see. Well this yummy food should make you feel better." Tae replied with another bright wide smile and fed me the very last of the extra noodles he'd given me. I was way beyond full now. Tae started texting on his phone while Jungkook got up and helped clean up. A nurse came in and checked everything, put her hand on my forehead.. they had making these fever checks for a few days.

"Good, still no fever." She smiled "You boys keep her calm and smiling, okay?" She said to them as she left the room.

"Will do!" Tae cheered before texting again. He must be texting Roxy. I felt like I was about to drift off, and maybe I did for a little bit, but I was opening my eyes quickly to the sound of another knock.

The door to my room opened and Jimin slowly crept in. His face was a little puffy and he was a little pink around his eyes like he'd been crying. I wanted to hug him, to ask him what was wrong but I myself had spent a lot of time crying, so much that I think that's why I was feeling so damn tired.

"Princess?" Jiminie called as he walked in and headed right over to me. I gave him a soft smile, he leaned down and kissed my forehead before he took my hand in his and sat down in the other chair on the right side of my hospital bed.

A few more minuted passed and the door opened again, this time Namjoon entered. I noticed a shift in mood as Jimin made eye contact with Namjoon. Namjoon came over to my left side, behind Tae and he leaned in and kissed my forehead.

"Hey Princess." He said softly, trying to smile. I could see sadness in his eyes though, and pain. He took looked like he'd been shedding tears and it made me wonder if things were okay with he and Jimin. More silence passed and Jimin and Namjoon hadn't spoken to one another. Then Jimin got up abruptly as Namjoon was telling me things were going to be okay, and promising to take me out to lunch once I get better again. I don't know why these things upset Jimin unless they knew something I didn't.

Was my time finally up? Is that why they were crying?
Namjoon got up and followed after him out the door.

"Tae?" I called to get his attention. He looked up from his phone with a caring smile.

"Yes Princess?" He responded.

"Am I.... Is.. I'm dying aren't I?" I asked with hesitancy. I didn't know if I wanted to know the truth.