Just Sleep(Levi X Reader)

Chapter 11: Hiding it was hard

(Author LeviAndErenAreMine's note): I know most of you are think something dirty because of the title but that's not the case sorry! In this chapter there will be no smut or lemons but I promise there will be some in further chapters!

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Y/n P.O.V

It has been a week since I recovered and things have gotten better but stranger for my relationship. Sure, we did have late nights together but it seems our comrades have noticed that we always come out from the same room but at different times. I know Jean, Connie and Eren have been thinking dirty as they keep throwing me some smug looks or smirks from time to time. But I know that's not the case.

I learned that Levi was actually quite affectionate. He wasn't the most romantic or loving man on the planet but he showed little signs of love and I know that's how he shows it so it makes me happy that I'm the lucky girl he showed love to.

We haven't gone far into the relationship as we were still hiding it from our comrades but Jean, Eren and Connie think we're having the thing every night. We've only kissed once or twice, have hugs that last a few seconds and hold hands for not long.

Hiding it was hard. 

That very time I hugged or held his hand he seemed uncomfortable. I was insecure but he didn't know that but seeing the furrowing between his eyebrows it made thoughts rush into my head.

Did he not like me? Was it just pity or empathy? Am I disgusting? Did I do something wrong?

I shook it off and buried my head into my knees, hugging my knees was a nice way of comfort. I gazed up at the night sky but my thoughts drifted back to Levi. Isn't he supposed to be here? Does he not want to meet up with me anymore?

I pouted and decided to leave as I've already been waiting for more than 5 hours, it was 11pm.

Levi P.O.V       

I rushed up the stairs trying to get to the roof top, I was already late. By the time I reached there Y/n was gone.

"Sh*t," I frustrated out grabbing my hair and plopping myself down on the roof. I looked up at the stars and I felt so ridiculous. My hands rested beside my body but my right one felt something. A note, I immediately read it.

I angrily tossed it aside after reading it.

"Dear Levi, I waited for 5 hours for you tonight and I know your busy with paperwork or something else but I wanted to tell you that I'm grateful. I'm so grateful for the love you gave me or showed me but I know it's not real."

"I know that you don't really love me and that love you say was just from pity and empathy. You don't have to feel that way, and what I'm trying to say it that, Let's break up. You don't have to feel awkward around me you can still think of you as the superior and me the cadet."

Best Wishes,                                                                                                                                                                              Y/n Zateng.

"F*CK THIS!" I stood up screaming, why is Y/n thinking like this? Why must we break up? Why does she not believe my love for her?

I broke down, crying, making myself seem dirty but I didn't care. I just lost the love of my life, the one that kept me alive, the one that brought light into my dark world, the one that melted my heart.

"Why Y/n? Why?" I whispered.

Y/n P.O.V

It's been a week since our break up and I've been avoiding the Captain as much as possible. I know that I wrote in my letter that things will go back to normal and we'll treat each other as peers but it wasn't working. I still had feelings for the Corporal and every little 'tch' or word just made my heart flutter. It wasn't easy and hiding it was hard, extremely hard. 

I learnt from Hange that Levi wanted an explanation of our break up(Hange knew that we were dating because she once annoyed Levi so much he accidentally spilt it) and that's why he's been chasing me without anyone knowing. I knew that once he got me I wouldn't be able to hide anymore so I've been avoiding everyone but Hange, Reiner and Ymir.

Us 3 have been sending letters to Annie and Bertolt and we found out they have been dating. I giggled remembering our first reaction.

~Flash Back

"Eeeeeeeeeh!!!" Me and Reiner squealed our hands clasped and we were hopping up and down in circles. Ymir laughed at our reaction and said, "Calm down, we already knew this was going to happen eventually."

"I'm just so happy," Reiner said while dabbing his invisible tears.

"Y/n, what's wrong?" Reiner asked realizing tears were flowing down my cheeks non stop.

"N-nothing, I'm just really glad that it worked out." I sobbed crying into their embrace.

~Present

That all happened after 3 weeks in the survey corps. Those were the best days when us 5 were together and I still longed for it.

Every Monday I would send letters to Annie and I'd get a reply in a few days. I wrote something down for Annie as it was her birthday, 22nd of March. I wrapped my gift which was a crown I made when I bought some metallic gold wires. I placed the gift and letter in a basket and I gently petted my owl before it gripped the basket and flew out into the night sky.

I smiled sadly, I longed for some love too.

To be Continued...Very Soon...

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