He Broke Me First

Chapter 34

I held my chest as soon as I closed the door of the guest room.

"What the hell," I whispered. "Did I hear it right?" I shook my head when my heart wouldn't stop from pounding against my chest. It felt like I just went from a race.

I let go of the door knob of the room where Joaquin was sleeping. Mabilis akong naglakad papuntang kwarto ko. I did my night care routine before lying myself in bed. Tumingin lang ako sa kisame, hindi alam kung paano makakatulog ngayon.

I had the urge to bang my head on the wall just to make myself calm but I knew it would be such a stupid action so I stopped thinking that.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano katagal ang oras na sinayang ko sa pag-titig sa kisame. All I knew was, I couldn't sleep! Fuck this feeling, I hated this.

I sat on the bed. "Can't you just go to sleep?" I talked to myself like a crazy one. I badly want to sleep but the other side of me wouldn't let me do it! Humiga na lang ulit ako at nagpagulong-gulong sa kama, making myself tired, thinking that it would make me feel sleepy.

Hindi pa rin ako dinalaw ng antok pagkatapos non kaya tumayo ako at pumunta ng banyo. Gusto kong pagtawanan ang sarili ko sa ginagawa ko ngayon. I was brushing my teeth again even though I already did this bago ako humiga sa kama ko kanina.

"I look stupid." I frowned while looking at my reflection in the mirror. Nasa bibig ko pa ang tooth brush. I didn't know why I was doing this again!

I went back to my bed after wasting minutes of my life in the bathroom. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko at nag-scroll muna sa social media. Nag-download pa ko ng pang 'tita' games nang hindi masiyahan.

When I got bored, I put my phone back on the side table before drinking a glass of water. Nakatulog na rin naman ako pagkatapos non.

Kinabukasan, maaga akong nagising. Sumibangot ako nang makitang 4 AM pa lang ng madaling araw. How much sleep did I get, then?! I tried to go back to sleep but my body wouldn't cooperate.

Tumayo na lang ako nang tuluyan at dumiretso sa cabinet ko. I decided to jog around the village since hindi na din naman ako makakatulog at masyado pang maaga para gumayak ako sa trabaho.

I wore a pair of grey leggings and sports bra partnered with my white sneakers. I also put my hair on a pony tail so it wouldn't cover my face.

Madilim pa ang langit pagkalabas ko. Mabuti na lang at maliwanag ang mga ilaw sa village. I fixed my airpods as I started running.

Napairap ako nang maalala kung bakit nasa ganitong sitwasyon ako ngayon. Napuyat ako kagabi dahil hindi ako pinatulog ng sinabi niya! He shouldn't have said that in front of me...

Umupo ako sa isang gilid para magpahinga saglit. Hindi pa din sumisikat ang araw nang tumingala ako. Nagbuga ako nang hangin bago tumayo pagkaraan ng ilang minuto.

Nasa tapat na ko ng gate namin nang may maalala. Lumabas si manang kaya nagpakuha na lang ako ng isang t-shirt para gawing pampatong sa sports bra ko.

I grabbed the loose white v-neck shirt from manang when she came back. Sinuot ko yon at inayos ang tali ng buhok ko pagkatapos. Sinabi ko din kay manang kung saan ako pupunta nang tanungin niya ko dahil sobrang aga pa daw. I sighed before turning my back, making my way outside the village to go in the nearest convenience store.

I pushed the glass door open before going inside the convenience store that was opened 24/7. Kumuha muna ako ng isang bottled water bago pumuntang counter.

"Eto lang, Ma'am?" Tanong sa'kin ng lalaking cashier.

Umiling ako. "Meron pa," I answered before getting a drink for Joaquin's hang-over. I was sure his head would ache as soon as he wake up. May pasok pa naman siya mamaya.