He Broke Me First

Chapter 25

Lakad takbo ang ginawa ko para makalapit kay Mama na nakaupo sa tapat ng operating room at umiiyak.

"Ma..." My voice broke as I hugged her.

"Anak... 'ang Papa mo."

Pinunasan ko ang luha niya habang umiiyak na rin ako. Hindi ko alam kung saan pa ako kukuha ng lakas sa mga nangyayari.

"Ano bang nangyari? Bakit nagkaganito?" I covered my eyes while still crying. Ano bang uunahin ko?...

"N-nabangga 'yong sasakyan... si Symon." She couldn't finish the sentence, she was just crying. "Syrbia, 'yong Papa mo."

I let her cry while I was also releasing my tears silently. I was being seated beside her, waiting for her to calm down. My mother cried for hours that my ears got used to her sobs.

Napahawak ako sa mga tuhod ko habang nag-iisip kung bakit ba ganito ang mga nangyayari sa amin. I grabbed her hand after I remembered that Coleen was with my father when the accident happened.

"Ma, si Coleen?" I asked with a broken voice.

"Stable na at kailangan lang ng pahinga." She sobbed. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag. Sinabi niya rin na nasa backseat si Coleen nang mangyari ang aksidente kaya hindi gaanong napuruhan.

We were patiently waiting for the doctor. I cried again while silently making a prayer. I know that I was not that close to him, but today, I prayed hard.

My body was feeling weak, I didn't know where to get strength. I felt like I was drowning in sadness. I felt like I could die because of my tears.

"The family of the patient?" the doctor asked when he stepped outside the operating room. Agad na tumayo si Mama, nakaalalay lang ako sa likod niya.

"K-kamusta po ang asawa ko? Maayos po, hindi ba?" My mother seemed so desperate while asking. I swallowed hard and waited for the doctor's answer, too.

"The operation went well but the patient is still unconscious and in comatose. I'm sorry but we can't tell when he will wake up. Please excuse me."

Bahagyang napaatras si Mama pagkarinig sa sinabi ng doktor. Muli akong napa-iyak habang inaalalayan ang likod niya para hindi siya tuluyang matumba.

I was crying silently... nanghihina ako. Ramdam ko ang pagod sa buong katawan ko.

"Ma." I forced her to get up when she weakly sat on the floor. I encircled my arms around her after she started crying again. This time, it was harder.

"Syrbia.." I leaned her head on my chest to comfort her. I could feel her agony. It was like I was watching my heart getting shattered by just the sight of my mother being like this.

Inalalayan ko si Mama papuntang kwarto ni Coleen. I stayed with her until she fell asleep because of crying for too much. I suppressed my sobs as I went out of the room and saw Joaquin.

Hindi ko alam kung paano niya nalaman. Tuloy-tuloy akong naglakad palayo sa kanya. Hindi ngayon... 'wag ngayon.

"Kiela... mag-usap naman tayo, oh."

I wiped the tear on my eye and looked at him. I painfully shook my head. I was trying to control myself not to hug him. I felt so tired because of the pain.

"Joaquin, tumigil ka muna... tumigil muna tayo." I bit my lip to stop it from trembling.

"Just let me explain-"

"H'wag muna ngayon, nakiki-usap ako." I covered my eyes as I felt my shoulders shaking. "H'wag ngayon.."

He nodded and gave me a small smile. I looked away. I don't want to look at his eyes and even at his face because I was hurting.