Pain With Regrets *complete*

ch. twenty one

"wow!!!!!!!!!! there are many handsome and beautiful faces today "

"but still my forth and sam is best "          chirped Mrs jaturaphoom 

but again if no one noticed but Mr jaturaphoom can feel his soulmate's hesitation and the reason was no one but beam .

She only gazed at beam once but she still remember how his son cried for that person .

Years before when forth still haven't told his parents about beam but they already knew about beam and the couple was so excited that beam will be their son -in-law  but see where they all are standing today ......

"mai lets go inside first and i will introduce you all"        said forth ...

"kha , lets go "

They all went inside and made themselves comfortable except beam off course .. in no world he could relax here..

The house staff gave them  their welcoming drink and snacks and everyone accepted it including beam too

"Now tell me  forth or you're going to sleep right  now "         

" ok ok .. so the first thing is here everyone is gay  for their respective partners mom ..you know this already "            answered forth 

(( a/n everytime i write or see or hear someone saying you know i only remember bts jin saying i am worldwide handsome you know ??))

"exactly that  the point   buddy your mom is a big  fujoshi here"        peeked out his father ..

"hahahaahaahaha"        laughed everyone in the room . this make forth to follow a particular voice of a man who had deep dimples in his cheeks ...

but he instantly removed his gaze before anyone could see him ...

"so the first one in black t and jeans is Ming my most precious nong and sitting besides him is kit his boyfriend 

followed  by wayo and pha .. Pha was my competitor in moon and star contest and the moon of the campus,  both are boyfriends........  This is beam , pha kit and beam are best friends since childhood and same goes with Wayo and Ming..."

Well this was the short intro of forth's friend to  his mom ...

"mai i guess p's need little rest na .. They might have got jet lag "     speak out sam and like a best mother-in-law mrs. jaturaphoom valued his words

"oh yes baby let them rest na "     said mark  (forth's father)

"yes yes honey .. I am sorry everyone .. let forth show you all your rooms "    mia (forth's mother) said

"so this is your room pha , wayo . Make yourself at home and you both can be as loud as you want ..Bedrooms are sound proof "      said  forth while teasing pha .. and wayo just blushed and hide his small body behind pha ...

"thank you for this facility forth i am really thankful to you "      replied pha with the same teasing tone and wayo slapped him on his back ...

forth and other laughed and went ahead to go in other room...

it was only forth who was showing everyone their rooms as sam choose to help mia  in the kitchen..

"and this one's for  you champ .. and hope you can tame here kitty here too "   wink forth to the couple in front of him ...

"hmm thank you p "       but before forth could go to show other room he received a text from pha saying     ' we need to talk , at 6 in my room kit will be here too'

'sure'       forth replied and he knew what pha need to talk and this made him realized about beam who was standing beside him silently ..

"let's go "    said forth . He tried his best to behave normally with beam too and seems like he succeed  as beam nodded his head too ..

" this one , it's yours and sorry that  it looks little bit girly 'cause mom thought that you will bring a 'she' with you  "    maybe forth said it normally but  it made the broken pieces of beam's heart broken more as he thought that forth mocked him with  'she' ..

"its ok"   

forth nodded and left the room ..as forth left the room , beam's tears left his eyes too .  

He quickly entered in his room and cried his heart out ..

Crying ..  silent cry ..

it's not new to beam but today when its forth .. its different today ..

it's more painful than other times , it hurt him more ..

if it could have been possible he might cry blood instead of tears ...

and on the same  time forth entered his room quickly locked himself in bathroom but he didn't cry ..

he was just sitting on the floor staring at nothing ...

his eyes were lost .. It looked like , this person never ever had felt any emotions ..

but by the passing time his eyes became watery and only a single tear flowed from his right eye ..

he quickly wiped it and even  noticed his hands .. 

the mark is still here ...  

the wound is still here 

the pain is still here

and the giver of all these is here too ........

but what now  ?????????????????????

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 you know i am planning to update this story quickly as i am excited for my next book .. i am so much excited for a real physco , manulpitive beam 

I don't know  if i am able to convey my emotions here 

but thank you so much for reading my book .. hope in next 5 chapters there will be some progress in their relation ..