It's been four years since forth start courting beam..
It's been one year since he stopped courting beam..
It's been one year since beam understood his feeling for forth....
It's been six month since forth start dating someone else...
It's been on...
Hello dear friends so basically this story is now in flashback from both side now and remember in present time beam has just fainted...... *-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*
Flashback
Forth's P. O. V
I fell on my knees when lam and park stopped dragging me ....
I put my both hand to support my body... . My vision was blurry I was seeing the river of my tears in front of me.....
I cried... Cried and cried.... Till I passed out...
I open my eyes and I was in my dorm ..... My head hurt and my heart start to weep again seeing the wall of my drom. It was a painting of beam almost equal to my wall......... I had painted it with my own hands because I wanted to see beam smiling towards me before and after going to bed everyday .....
This painting tell me that see forth you always knew that beam won't look at you like you want ,,, that the reason you painted this....
Everytime, whenever I look at this picture my heart become happy....
But today it clearly tell me that you have already lost your dignity. ..
Dignity,,, I still remember that how the other students looked at me yesterday when beam told me that I am being desperate for dicks...
I have never cared for any other person's view towards me...
This is why people always respect me... Because I respect my self but not know Beam's words affected me...
I wobbly stood up and went closer to that painting and stood straight in front of that master piece...
Tears again rolled from my eyes....
I touched his dimples and asked my self that have I literally sold my self respect...
In last three years he have rejected me several times but I still run back to him so of course I have lost it....
" beam I love you, why you don't "
" beam I wanted to protect you, why not you"
"beam I wanted to hold you, why not you"
"beam I respect you, why not you"...
As I spoke the last words to the painting lam entered in the....
Park showed following lam...
He showed me his worry look but lam looked like a killer...
He marched towards me grabbed my both collars increasing my height a little bit...
I know it not me on whom he is mad...
They are the only person who have seen the true me.... Not even beam...
I am a very macho, manly, sexy for others ...
But they have seen me being clumsy, mommy's boy, Romeo in love , crybaby and about emotional person
But for beam... Forget him.... I don't think that he might have noticed me....
Lam was clenching his teeth and fisting harder on my collars looking all mad.. But I slowly hugged him...
I hugged him tightly without speaking to him but telling him that I am hurt that I am afraid, I put my head on his shoulder and again start crying this time loudly not caring what my neighbors will think....
"forth " lam called me gently, I can't show them my face now so I just nodded still burrying my head in his shoulders..
" forth, bro it been three days since you wake up " he completed his words...
I get startled and stood straight in front of him...
I only had one thought... I just wanted to listen that whatever happened in the canteen was just my dream but he didn't....
Instead park come closer to me and showed me his phone...
I confusedly took it... His facebook I'd was open and I looked what he was showing... .
I can't take this anymore.... His phone fell from my hands....
I my whole lifetime I never has been..... Been..... Been...
Humiliated like this. . It was the video of beam calling shouting on me in canteen...
Next , again a short edited video of beam rejecting me many times with the caption.... "do any one know which language that boy understand I guess he can't get what beam is saying. #shameless. #cocksuker. #fang"
Next it was video of my one night stand when I was in my first year saying how I become desperate to touch their dicks....
There was only engineering faculty who was supporting me and two ....two other boys from medical and only one from science ( pha kit and wayo)...
I looked at Park and just ask one word
"beam"
He looked at me guilty and answered me that. "he become silent on this topic"
Then I looked at lam and even without saying anything he understood me and hugged me again and assured me that every video is taken down already and university is silent know..
Of course it will be...if my parents know about it then it their help.... They will do everything to protect their only son....
But why them.. It was me who worked like a bull in farms to gain that respect, to gain that position, to become like that....
It all ruined just in seconds....
I freed my self and turned around to look at that painting.... I unhanged it and with a very loud noise threw it on the ground....
"why " I screamed with crack voice this was the first time I used an angry tone looking at my first love....
"why. Why. Why "
"why you ruined me beam why.... I loved you but you killed me.... Why beam"
I walked towards my study table and tried finding something.....
I grabbed my old lighter and again walked towards the painting which us on the floor now....
Lam and park was just looking at me without saying a thing...
I lit up the lighter and bend down near the painting....
From one end I set the painting on fire....
I stood up feeling little better....
"I will not be forth anymore.... I will became forth jaturapoom now just wait beam"
The painting start to burn making some parts true into ashes
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The painting
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