Pain With Regrets *complete*

chapter thirty seven

one of my biggest dream is to go to kashmir ....          The beauty of my country , but it's not that easy to visit kashmir ..........   btw right now kashmir is safe for us now but the biggest reason is i am broke as hell to even visit a part of my own country  .....

there is so much in India to look at , it's such a big country that i sometime hate why india is so big that even indians can't travel whole india .....

I want to say to forigen readers that please try to visit india , our country is full of beauty and can find any weather here and the different genes too .....

the beaches of goa and mumbai are wonderful   ( visited goa )

the desert of rajasthan and white desert of kuch  ( visited rajasthan and kuch )

the greenery of lakshadweep  ( still on wish list )

tradition of kerala (check )

tea valley of darjling   (still just a dream  )

haven on earth , kashmir  ( still a dream ) 

the city beautiful , chandigrah ( I live here )

the dream city, mumbai  (check )

the never sleeping city  , delhi  ( check)

the love of shah jahan , taj mahal (check)

the seven sisters  , arunachal pradesh - assam- manipur-meghalaya - mizoram - nagaland - tripura    (still just a wish  )

okay sorry , our country is so big i don't think think i could write everything here , but i still want nepal , bhutan , srilanka to be part of india again so we can call it hindustan again ... no offence its just my wish ....  ignore it  if you don't like it ...

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the morning ray of beautiful sunshine was something that woke up forth from his beautiful dream land ..

he slowly opened his eyes and check the weight on his chest and a beautiful smile broke on his face ....

beam was  sleeping peacefully on his chest ...his left cheek was plastered  on forth's chest making his pulp lip form a pout ..

"love "    forth said .... wow there was really love in his voice , some flirtness  and some what shyness ...

he is really happy that his parents saved him from ruining his own life , he can't believe that he could try to love sam   ...... no he can't his love for beam is still there in his heart and that not going any where ... even if he dies ....

forth started to caress beam's hairs and beam tried to shift in his sleep eventually waking up ..

"morning ,my love "    forth said while sitting straight on his bed ..

beam knotted his  brows looking at forth but slowly his cheeks turned red and he crossed his hands on his face hiding his face from froth ....

"what ???????   you are shy to me after all what we did last night huh ???"      foth asked hovering on top of beam and slowly taking his hands on his ...

"what ????"   beam asked surprizingly making his eyes pop out ...

"yeah and you are behaving like a shy kid baby "    forth teased his again going dangerously close to his husband's red face ....

beam tried to wriggle out but he saw himself on a forth still on their wedding suit , just coats were missing ....

he glared at his now husband and pouted after saying   "we didn't do anything last night "   and pushed forth on bed , waking up himself and walking to the bathroom ....