Love behind the screen {student/teacher}

Chap29 Lacey~ On One Knee

Song on the side of mayday parade- miserable at best, simply because it's a beautiful song.

Paul fans will love this I think.

crappy chapter but it's got an amazing ending;)

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 A month had gone passed. 

A painful month that had passed and nothing was getting better. Only worse.

 I never made contact with anyone. Not even my parents.  I simply told them that we are over before walking to my room.

 My mother had spent the night with me the first couple of weeks, but it didn't stop the pain.

 I just wanted to be alone. 

 I also found out something really shocking.

 The reason why Kale and Charlotte had been so cruel to me was because Caleb. He threatened them with something I didn't want to listen to.

 So now the three trio are back, but I never really put the effort in being their friends. I forgave them and sat next to them a dinner, but I was still in my state of depression.

 I was just being stupid for being so upset over a guy, but I loved him and he broke my heart.

 A small piece of me believed him that he thought it was me and the alcohol took over, but I guess I was trying to make excuses to stop being mad at him.

 I refused to say his name too. It hurt to much. Now he was just called him or Mr Dylan, while all the other students call him by his first name.

 I could tell that Mr Dylan was in the same state as I since he never smiled and when he did, it was painfully forced. 

 In a way, I was glad he was suffering simply because I was suffering as well and I needed him to feel the pain I was feeling.

But in another way, I didn't want him to feel bad even for cheating on me.

  I couldn't get his words out of my head. I'm in love with you. Was he really or just trying to make me go back to him.

 Christmas had passed and nothing exciting had happened. I smiled and thanked my parents for the presents, had Christmas dinner with all the family before going back to my room.

 I've some how become a slight alcoholic. I pay this guy to buy me a bottle and then take it in my room to drink up. 

 I've tried not become him but it was either cutting or drinking. I''m pathetic for my options only being them, but some how, I have no other choice. The pain in too much.

 My wrists and thighs are fully covered in scars from the razor blade that I've suddenly become best friends with.

 "Lacey sweetie. How are you feeling today?" My mom asked, entering hesitantly. Her and dad was always careful around me now. At first I didn't know why. but I've noticed that I get angry a lot more than usual. 

"Still breathing." Unfortunately. 

 "Paul is at the door for you." She said. What could he possibly be doing here?

 "Tell him to come up please." She nodded and I quickly looked at my appearance. 

 I frown at the straw-filled hair and pale skin. My figure was way too skinny for my liking. I've always wanted to be skinny, but never so that you can see my bones.