Streets and Sheets 5

Flashback

Sloane's POV

End of the school day

"What time is practice?" She asked me as she went through her locker. I turned a way for a second knowing that I was look at her a little too hard.

"What's wrong?" She stopped after noticing that my attention shifted.

"You know he would have a real attitude if you knew you we were speaking. Especially after the conversation we had." We stood in the hallway as lockers slammed and kids hurried to class.

"He hasn't been to school in a week and a half. Plus there is a lot more than talking happening." She leaned up against the wall of lockers. She looked me up and down as I though about how long it had been since we ended up falling in to each other.

"Have you seen him?" I asked.

"It doesn't matter. Have you seen Lucky?" She shot back causing me to just smile and nod.

"Ok." I smiled.

"Even if I have seen him he doesn't know."

"Well it looks like we are in the same boat Emerald. We are both fucked up people playing a dangerous game." I added as she gathered her things. It was clear that I was starting to feel bad. The fact that if she was any one else I wouldn't have cared.

"It is dangerous." She stopped to look at me. It had been months since the first time and I am not ready to let what ever this is go.

"He is far from crazy but I don't know how long I can keep doing this."

"Doing what?" She asked as we walked towards the exit of the school.

"The lying and pretending. He thinks you are saving yourself for him." I pointed out.

"What?" I ignored her response knowing that she played a part in creating a narrative.

"I'm putting in work ever single night, sexually and emotionally. If I can't be with you out loud I damn sure don't want to do this sneaky shit." I opened the door for her through as we made our way through the parking lot.

"I didn't want this to happen but I'm glad it did. I mean I always liked spending time with you and being around you but... you know how y'all are." Tay and I were boys, more like brothers but it has been rough being around him when I have been laid up with his girlfriend every single night. He may not know it but that's were the distance has been coming from. When got to my car I took her bags and put them in the back seat.

"I can't have you then I'm not sure how long I can keep doing this. You are fucking with my head and it's starting to get to my heart. I'm just being honest." We stood face to face in the middle of the parking lot.

"You don't think this shit messes with me Sloane?" She only called my by my full name when she was serious.

"I just want you to be honest with yourself E. You came to me about my relationship and ended up telling me about the shit that was wrong in yours. You told me you wanted me to be... Emerald you asked me to be your first. You knew how I felt about you before and you know now." I stopped myself from getting loud as more people came out of the school. I opened her car door before immediately turning around and heading to the drivers side. I got in and started the car.

"Babe I..."

"Chill on the names Emerald." I cut her off trying to keep the conversation on track.

"I don't regret anything about this and I don't regret doing it with you. It's just fucked up because I don't want to hurt his feelings." She said still tap dancing around the situation. I pulled out of the parking spot before I responded.