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11. Drive Back Home

@Maverickk17(go read her books)(NOW) this chapter is for you

(play song now)

Delaney's Pov: 

We were driving to my house for our movie night. I was playing music as always. I kinda just put my Zayn playlist on shuffle hoping that good songs would come on. We stopped at a red light and Dusk Till Dawn by Zayn and Sia started playing. Madison looked over at me. I was holding in every urge to cry. "This is my favorite song by Zayn," Madison said with a comforting smile. I couldn't bare to look at her. I knew that if I looked at her any longer I would break down and cry. Everything started to come back, the bedroom, the mirror, the field, the cliff. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I broke down right there next to her. The light turned green. She looked at me concerned. She pulled into a near parking lot and parked the car. She got out of the car and came to my side. She opened my door and hugged my tight. She didn't let go and neither did I. I didn't want to lose her again. 

(tw ⚠️: mention of suicide)

I calmed down after a bit. She looked down at me and said, "I'm here ok. You'll be ok." Those words made me calm. I looked at her and said, "I think you deserve to know why I'm like this." "You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to." "I want to tell you." "Here come sit back here," she said as she opened the trunk. She got in first and I quickly followed her. I sat next to her and put my head on her shoulder. She rested her head on top of mine. "I guess I should start and tell you what and when it happened. It was a dream more like a nightmare but a dream. It was the night that I told you everything about Collin. I woke in the middle of night. You were laying right next to me. I quickly feel back asleep then I started to dream. I was in my childhood bedroom. I looked around and saw you but you were on the other side of a mirror which was at an open field with a cliff near it. You reached your hand out to me. I took it. You lead me through to your side. I looked back to where the mirror was but I didn't see it anymore. I then turned back around to where you were. You weren't there anymore. All I saw was a shadow very far away. I ran as fast as I could to the shadow but every time I would get close they would disappear to a different place. This kept on happening. The shadow was now standing near the cliff. Finally I got closer and I could see that it was you. I yelled your name but it was like you couldn't hear me. I finally reached you and tried to grab you but you were like a ghost. Every time I would try and hold you or touch you my hand would just go right through you. I said your name but you didn't respond. Finally I got in front of you and you had your thinking face on. You looked stressed and sad," that's when the tears started to come back. Madison held me in her arms comforting me. After a few minutes I finally calmed down. "I said your name again, but you didn't answer yet again. You sat down on the edge of the cliff and started to play one of my favorite songs, Dusk Till Dawn by Zayn and Sia. You looked like you were about to cry. You put the volume on the highest setting. You then set your phone down and stood up. You look liked you were about to jump, I tried to catch you but I couldn't. My arms went right through you like they did all the other times. Then you did it. You jumped. There was nothing I could do. I couldn't pull you away from the edge or talk you out of it. Everything was out of my control. Just like that you were gone. I would never have you back. You would never hug me again. You would never call me Ber again. You were gone but yet I could still feel your presence. I then heard a voice that sounded just like you whisper "I'll be with you from dusk till dawn."  I turned around to see if you were there but there was only an empty field. I felt empty. I felt like I let you and myself down cause you were the one person I couldn't help." 

Madison's Pov:

I listened to Delaney the whole time and I could tell that she was in pain. I didn't know what to do so I just held her in my arms the whole time. I could hear the hurt in her voice when ever she came across a part with me. I never knew that I could mean so much to a person. I thought about jumping a few years ago. The one thing that stopped me from doing it was my mom. She was the only reason for me to stay alive. I now have so many more reasons to say alive. 

She stopped talking and just sat there. I could tell she was overthinking. The only times when she is quiet is when she's overthinking. I finally broke the silence, "I promise I will never leave you." "Pinky promise?" "Pinky promise." I grabbed her finger and wrapped it around mine. I wouldn't let myself leave her. I know I wouldn't do it willingly. 

We sat there for about twenty more minutes just enjoying each others presence. Delaney decided to break the silence and say, "We have a movie night awaiting us." "Yes ma'am," I said getting a laugh out of her. "Off to the house we go," I said once we got in the car earning a genuine smile out of her. 

We finally got back to her house. I grabbed our things that we got from target out of the back seat. We went inside and Delaney and I got a lot of looks from Delaney's mother and brothers. "You can go put the stuff up in my room." "Ok," I said with a smile.

Here you go the eleventh chapter. I hope you enjoyed it. I did in fact cry while writing this but we don't talk about that part. See yalls.

-Baddest Bitch Alive