Let Me In (gxg)

8. School

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(TW ⚠️: talks about anxiety)

Madison's Pov:

I hear the bell ring and get my stuff and walk out of the science class. I still haven't seen Delaney yet. She said she got a drive to school but I'm starting to think she lied. She would never be late to school it is so unlike her. Not like I've noticed when she comes to school or anything. I see her friend Lana. I was gonna go up to her but then I saw Kia go up to her and decided that was not the best idea. Me and Kia aren't enemies or anything its just that if you get her in the wrong mood you will regret ever speaking in your life. I decided to leave it alone and go to English class. I didn't want her to think I am obsessive or something like that.

I saw James and went up to him. "Hey James. I kinda have something to tell you." "Hey. And please tell me you didn't do anything stupid." The thing I might've not told you about me and James is that we are both very alike. We also have told each other everything. That also means he knows about my crush on Delaney "I was watching tiktok and well I may or may not have come across my new celebrity crush." "WHAT THE HELL. Sorry what the hell." "The best thing about this crush is that I might have a chance, probably not though I think she is straight." "Who the hell is it." "The person that I came across was Delaney. I may or may not have stalked her page and saw that she had over HALF A MILLION FOLLOWERS." "Did you follow her." "Hell no that means that she would know that I have seen her videos and I can't let her know that." "Give me your phone." "Wait why-" "Just do it." I gave him my phone. "Here you go." "What did you do." "Well first off congrats on 20k followers on tiktok. Also you are now following Delaney on tiktok." "You did not-" Before I could finish my sentence I got a notification on phone that Madison followed me back. "Your welcome," he said with sass in his voice.

The bell rang and me and James said our goodbyes then went to class. I have English class with Delaney. I walk in and sit at my seat. Delaney's seat is right in front of mine. I see her walk in. I was gonna say something to her but I decided it was best to just wave and smile. I smiled and waved and her and she just gave me a fake smile back. I could tell it was a fake smile because she quickly got rid of it and there wasn't a twinkle in her eyes like normal. I knew something was wrong but I also knew that if I said anything she would break down in tears and that was the last thing I wanted to happen. Then he walked in. He was the last to enter. It was Collin. He looked at Delaney with the most perverted look ever. I was about to get up and knock him senseless but the teacher walked in. Once she walked in Delaney went up to her and asked her something.

Delaney's Pov:

I walked into English class which was second period. I hope I didn't miss that much in Science. I looked up and saw Madison in her seat. She smiled and waved at me. I gave her a fake smile back. I hope she couldn't see that I was crying before. Then he came in. He looked at me with the most disgusting look on his face. That's when it started to happen. I could feel it happening before but I calmed myself down. I couldn't calm myself this time. It was getting worse. The teacher walked in. I went up to her and asked her if I could go to the bathroom. My English teacher and my best friends are the only ones who know that this happens to me. She is sorta like my therapist in a way. She understood what was happening and told me to take as long as I needed.

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I walked out of class and it happens. I run to the bathroom as fast as I could. I get in the bathroom and just collapse. The thing I haven't told anyone except my best friends and English teacher is that I have really bad anxiety and bad panic attacks as well. I am really good at hiding it because I've had it since I was little. I never told anyone else about this or let anyone see that it was happening because I thought that they would look down upon me or think less of me. So I would usually go the bathroom or my English teacher when they would happen.

I felt like I was spinning and I couldn't stop. Everything around me went quiet and black. I was breathing fast and my heart was going a mile a minute. I just sat on the ground hugging my knees praying that it would go away. The only way that I can explain panic attacks in my experience is that you are standing in the middle of a deserted road and then out of nowhere a car comes up and is going 100 miles per hour. You try to jump out of the way but you are paralyzed. There is no stopping the car and there is no way to avoid it.

Madison's Pov:

I ask my English teacher if I could go check on Delaney. She kinda hesitated but then her eyes lit up and said yes. I ran as fast as I could to the bathroom. I went in the bathroom and saw Delaney on the floor hugging her knees. I got down next to her and asked her if she was ok. She didn't say anything she just sniffled. I pulled her close to me and hugged her. "It's gonna be ok Del. I got you. I'm right here," I said those things trying to calm her down. I think it worked because she stopped sniffling but I could tell that she was breathing really fast. She looked up at me and said "Thank you. I'm sorry you had to see this. Also how did you come up with Dem?" "Come on there is no reason to apologize. Also to answer your question I don't know, it kinda just fits " "Fine since you have a name for me I should come up with one for you. Hmm let me think. Mads." "Okay I like that." "I'm sorry for keeping you out of class." "What did I say about apologizing." "I know but I never told anyone that this happens." "What happens?" I asked a little confused. "I suffer from really bad anxiety and have panic attacks from it." I just looked at her. Not in a judgmental way but in a comforting way. I never knew she suffered from anxiety or panic attacks. "I know you are probably confused right know and wondering why I don't show it more often. The reason is I thought that people would judge me, so I learned to hide it so no one would ever know." "Well you've done a great job hiding it," I say trying to make her happy. She laughed at what I said.

I got up and put my hand out for her to grab. She looked up at me and smiled. I could tell this one was genuine because she had that twinkle in her eye. She grabbed my hand. I pulled her up. She looked up at me and said, "Thank you really you helped me." "No problem that is what I'm here for." After I said that she hugged me. I hugged her back. Then I came up with something. "What do you say we ditch school and drive around." "Sounds like fun," she said. "I will go grab our things from English class since its almost done anyway. Here you take these and go to my car. You can put any music on you want except country." I gave her my keys and she looked up at me with a huge smile on her face. "Thank you. I still don't know what you have against country music." We both walked out of the bathroom. The bell rings as I got to the classroom that English is in. I grab both mine and Delaney's stuff. Just as I was about leave the teacher said my name. "Yeah," I said as I turned around. "Can you give this to Delaney please?" she asked as she handed me a folded piece of paper which I'm guessing is a note. "Yeah no problem." And with that I was out. I walked out of the building with out anyone noticing. I got to the car and saw Delaney looking through her phone trying to find music. I got in the car and handed her the note. "Ms. V wanted to give this to you." (Ms. V is the English teacher.) "Oh. Ok," she said.

There you go. The eight chapter. You will probably get more chapters from me today. Sorry for not updating for a while I was sorta busy having panic attacks. I wrote the panic attack like how it happens for me. I know it is different for everyone. Have a good day and remember that YOU ARE NOT ALONE. ALSO I LOVE YOU.

-Baddest Bitch Alive