Soulmate [P.JM | K.TH]

40

Chapter 40

Warning: Very long chapter.

(Y/n's POV)

1:53 am. This is exactly what my phone showed when I checked the screen. It was late, very late indeed, for someone like me to walk around the city, alone. Yes. I was out at this hour, wandering to the places where my feet took me, just to clear off my mind of the things that had been piled up for too long. Or maybe just to distract myself for a while, cause I actually didn't know how to face the situations or reality whatever it is. Also, whatever happened in the morning left a deep scratch in my mind.

The roads were empty. Shops in the locality were already closed except few. I met two or three people on my way and I guessed they were busy heading home after running their errands. The nearby areas looked creepy enough, like a horror movie. Everything was noiseless as if it was a town of dead. And the zombies would come out any time soon. No human. No vehicles. No hustle and bustle. Only the lonely headlights and a lonely me, minding our own business.

Everyone is busy dealing with something. Everyone has their own problems, own issues, own obstacles. In fact, everyone is busy with their own-selves. They are struggling everyday. For what? For a better life? For a better future? For leading a life filled with happiness?

I thought so. Everyone wants to be happy. But not everyone is happy.

I let out a small sigh when the memories of the morning flashed in my mind once again.

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*flashback*

I saw him sitting alone in the cafeteria. Though I was standing far enough from him, I could clearly see his face and read the expressions. Those lines of worries on his forehead didn't leave unnoticed by me. The cup of the coffee that was still held by his hand got cold long ago as there was no steam rising. Yet he didn't seem to notice. His eyes that looked heavy with his inner emotions were fixed at somewhere, maybe at the coffee or at the table. They were sunk in some real deep thoughts. He wasn't okay. Something was bothering him. Deep down I knew what was exactly bothering him. Though I tried to refuse.

I didn't meet him since that day at the cafeteria when he had that same expression on his face and was indifferent to every little things around him. I just didn't wanna show up and I don't know why. Because I was hurted that day? Because I was unsure about everything? Because I got another problem added up to the list? Did I get too moody? Was it really justified for me to feel hurted? I don't know. But it's true that I missed him, every single day.

I missed his company that used to make my day, once upon a time.

I took a deep breathe before started walking towards him. It was noticeable that he wasn't good and this fact was already a big problem for me. Seeing him all gloomy and dull is painful. So, I thought about something that might make him feel a little better.

I reached the table. He didn't notice. I dragged the chair and sat down in front of him. He didn't notice either. He was so lost into his thoughts. I sighed once before calling out his name. "Jimin."

His eyelids fluttered as he looked at me. His face went blank but for a very short time. "Oh...Y/n." He spoke in a dry voice and smiled faintly.

I stared at him for some time, straight into the eyes, so did he. I could read his mind. He wondered how I was doing but I doubted if he would actually ask that. Cause things had been pretty awkward lately. I wanted everything back to normal, just the way we used to be. Won't deny a part of me was very much afraid of thinking if it's ever possible.