Soulmate [P.JM | K.TH]

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Chapter 16

I turned back to meet his face as he let go of my hand slowly. Jimin swiftly got down on his knees and took both of my hands in his so carefully that it seemed he was afraid it might hurt me. I had no idea about what he was going to do next. I was just standing there in silence and watching him. He was always good at talking while looking straight into the listener's eyes, and he did the same too this time. "Y/n, I'm really sorry for everything I've done. I know you're so angry and mad at me but, and it's normal for you to be angry at me. But please give me another chance. I promise I'll never make such mistakes again. Forgive me."

I went speechless hearing him apologizing. That was beyond my expectation and maybe imagination. After few seconds, I freed my hands from his hands and took few steps behind. "Do you think it's so easy to forgive you? Huh?" My voice got louder. I didn't want to raise my voice but it looked like it got raised without my wish. "Why are you apologizing now?" I asked.

He stood up and said, "I never meant to hurt you."

"Right. Then why are you apologizing to me now? There was no need for it."

He was silent. Yeah, it was expected. After all, he has understood my situation and what has left for him to say now? "What do you think yourself, Jimin? You'll avoid me whenever you want. And also pull me to talk with you whenever you like? If you think in that way, then you're thinking wrong. I'm just tired of this!" I almost shouted.

"I'm sorry. You can blame me for that, cause it was all my fault. Now I'm apologizing for that. I want our friendship to stay just like it was before."

"Why do you even care?" I asked with all the anger and torment that had been grew inside me for all this time.

"Cause you're someone I never wanna lose."

I looked at his eyes. I didn't know how I was feeling then, it was a strange feeling. I didn't say anything more. I can never stay angry for too long with him and I think it's a bad habit of me. I'm so weak in that case. I was feeling I should forgive him. But I wanted him to realize the pain I had. However, I knew that I'll forgive him. Cause no matter how much he hurts me I'll still love him, just the way I did.

I wasn't able to look into his eyes cause my eyes were getting full with salty liquid. I shifted my gaze to hide them from him, but I was unlucky. He knows me too better. He saw that I was shedding tears. He quickly came to me, grabbed both of my shoulders with his warm hands and asked, "Are you crying?"

First of all I was emotionally messed up, secondly he asked something stupid when he was clearly watching that I had tears in my eyes. "Can't you see?" I asked being annoyed. He's really stupid sometimes.

He retorted and sounded like pleading, "I said I'm sorry. Please, don't cry." But his words didn't help. I had no control over my tears. They were just coming. Honestly I also felt like pouring out them which I was bottling up for so long.

I let go of his hands and slowly sat down on the cold wooden court. I threw my bag aside and hid my face with my palms. "I'm tired of all this. I can't take this anymore." I sighed. He got down too and sat in front of me. "I hate it when soemone ignores me without any reason. You have no idea how worried I was. I constantly kept thinking what have I done so wrong. I kept blaming myself for that. For all the time I only had one thought in my head, why is he behaving like that?"