ALL ABOUT HIM (COMPLETED)

Chapter 23

"Miki, bumangon kana iinom kapa ng gamot" nagising ako sa tawag ni Sendoh saakin

Naupo ako sa kama at tumingin sa bintana na tanaw ang City, nasa Condo nya ako naalala ko nagpumilit pala ako pumarito ako dahil ayoko makita nila kung gaano ako kahina sanay na ako kay Sendoh. Sanay syang nakikita nasasaktan ako sanay syang nakikita akong umiiyak pero iba ngayon dahil halos maubos na ang tubig sa katawan ko kakaiyak gabi gabi.

"Ayos na ba pakiramdam mo?nung nakaraan kapa suka suka at nahihilo kulang ka siguro sa kain at tulog, masyado kase matigas ulo mo" naiiritang sabi nya saakin at naupo sa tabi inabutan ako ng tubig at gamot. Agad ko naman ininom at nahiga

"Ilan na ang lumipas na araw?" Tanong ko sakanya pero ang paningin ko ay nasa kisame at don tumunganga.

"Mag iisang buwan na, and isang buwan ka na rin inactive sa school buti nalang nag uupdate si Maria sa bawat activities, magpasalamat ka dahil next owner ng school ang mommy mo dahil kung hindi ay napatalsik kana" sabi nya saakin pero hindi ako masyadong nakinig sakanya iniisip ko parin si Rukawa kung kamusta na sya don, okay lang ba sya?ganon

"Miki umiiyak ka nanaman" agad naman akong napaupo at pinunasan iyon, napatingin nalang ako kay Sendoh ng maramdaman ko ang mainit nyang palad sa pisngi ko

"Sendoh, okay lang ako. Makakalimot din ako pero syempre mahihirapan ako" tipid akong ngumiti sakanya at sumandal sa headboard ng kama. Natili nakatingin saakin si Sendoh para bang inoobserbahan ako.

"Ayusin mo na ang sarili mo Miki. Hanggang kelan ka magiging ganyan?napapabayaan mo na ang sarili mo" sapo ni Sendoh ang noo nya at huminga ng malalim

Alam ko marami sila nag aalala sa sitwasyon ko pero masyado na ba ako nagiging selfish? Kase sarili ko nalang ang iniisip ko?na ako lang ang nasasaktan?

"Sorry, kung pati kayo nadadamay Sendoh.. talagang nahihirapan pa ako sa ngayon bumangon at mag act na walang nangyari..alam ko kalat sa school ang nangyaro bawat lingon ko ay issue tungkol saamin ang maririnig ko kaya gusto ko muna ipahinga bago ako pumasok ulit" sinserong sabi ko sakanya at hinawakan ang kamay nya diretso naman syang tumingin saakin

"Sana nga, tutulungan kita Miki hindi ka mag isa" lumapit sya saakin at hinaplos ang pisngi ko

"Iniwan nya ako para sa pangarap nya Sendoh....hindi ko yun nagawa sakanya dahil sya ang pangarap noon pa naman hindi ba ako naging sapat?para iwanan nya ako?papayag ako sa ldr basta alam ko akin sya kahit nasa malayo sya sanay ako maghintay basta para sakanya pero bakit?.." nasasaktang sinabi ko sakanya nagsimula narin tumulo ang mga luha ko sa bawat oras lagi ko syang naiisip ang mga alala namin dalawa nasasaktan ako kase ganito kami tinapos ng tadhana..Napakasakit.

"Iniwanan ka nya para sa pangarap nya..ngayon tuparin mo ang tunay mong pangarap ng hindi mo kinakailangan ang suporta nya at expectation nya..unahin mo ang sarili mo ngayon Miki ikaw naman, tama na kay Rukawa hayaan mo si Rukawa naman ang lumaban sainyo hindi lang ikaw kung sakali babalik sya pahirapan mo sya hayaan mo na ikaw naman ang pangarapin nya na mahirap abutin." Seryosong sabi nya saakin napatingala naman ako sakanya bigla ko naalala lahat.... na ang ginawa ko ng ilang taon ay hindi para saakin kundi para lahat kay Rukawa.

"I just want him to know how he hurt me" naiiyak na sabi ko at humiga sa kama nagtaklob ng kumot. Narinig ko naman pag hinga ng malalim

"He absolutely know..Rukawa knew when he did it and he know you are hurting right now... just.. he doesn't care anymore. So please stop thinking about him Miki!take your dignity and move on!" Galit na sabi nya saakin at lumabas ng kwarto, ganon sya pag sobra na syang nagagalit ayaw nya magsalita ng masakit saakin kaya pinipili nya mag walk out.

Huminga naman ako ng malalim at tumayo when i I suddenly feel cramping and pain in my lower tummy napahawak ako sa tyan ko. Napasigaw na ako ng may tumutulong dugo sa hita ko

"Miki!!" Huling rinig ko bago ako nawalan ng malay.

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Umakyat agad ako when I heard miki shout in the bedroom so I quickly went. I saw her lying on the floor and her pajamas were bloody. I immediately picked her up and took her to the hospital. I was the only one with her. I didn't say to anyone because Miki would be angry with me.

I stood up when the doctor came out and I came over

"Doc how is Miki?" worried I asked the doctor

"Kaano ano ka nya?" Tanong saakin ni Doktor

"She is my friend, and at the moment she is living with me" natatarantang sagot ko. Nararamdaman ko ang panginginig ng kamay ko

"According to my check up she was 3weeks pregnant" I suddenly became cold from what I found out.

is she pregnant with Rukawa?

"How is the baby? Is it okay? Healthy?" confused I asked

"I'm so sorry for your loss, because of so much stress. Puntahan mo ako mamaya para makuha mo ang gamot nya and sorry again" The doctor said sadly and walked away

And yet she had a miscarriage.

I'm sad for Miki, she didn't know she was pregnant. I don't know how to tell her

I entered her room and saw her sitting and looking outside

"Miki" I called her with no emotion on her face when she looked at me

"I have a feeling that something is wrong with what I'm feeling for the past few days, my mens haven't visited me either. I thought my period might be delayed but I suddenly thought I might be pregnant because Rukawa didn't use anything. And my breast hurts, I'm vomiting, dizzy. tell me Sendoh am I right?" I just nodded to her and hugged her and She started crying at me

"You had a miscarriage Miki, I'm sorry the doctor said it was because of stress and you weren't aware that you were pregnant so we didn't have it I'm sorry..shhh Miki" she cried even more when I said that I feel sorry for her I don't have anything I can do anything to get rid of the pain She feels.

Get ready for me Rukawa.. when we meet again I'll make sure you don't get close to Miki again especially with the pain you left with her.

I hugged Miki tightly and laid her down. I kissed her forehead when she fell asleep crying

"I'll do everything you can just forget the pain I feel I'm always by my side I won't leave you every time you pass by I'm with you Miki promise I won't leave you alone, that's how dear you are" I kissed her lightly on the lips and held her hand

I'm just here next to you Miki, you won't feel alone because I'll be with you.