don't leave (l.h)

fourth day.

There was only three more days until Luke will come home from L.A. I still haven't planned this whole thing out. I had more or less came up with arguments but nothing that will hold. I wanted a good reason for him to leave me alone. The fact that I was too unstable for him to stay will only do that. Make him stay.

Because if I told him I couldn't take care of myself he will never leave me alone. He will fight with me. But the problem is that you can't fight this. Only I can, alone. But he wont understand that. I need a better reason.

I brought my hand up to the sore place where Drew had left a mark on yesterday. It was disgusting. I couldn't hide it either, I tried, but my wouldn't reach. I knew Luke will see it. It will break his heart. He will think that I cheated on him.

I was right now in class. I tried to listen while Mr. Fitch spoke but my mind always drifted off to Luke. I had brought all my hair to the side where the hickey was placed only to cover it as much as possible. My hand was also covering it. Sarah sat next to me. We didn't speak, it felt weird to talk to her. But she leaned in to me and whispered.

"I guess you heard about 5sos." she said, a smile pulling at her lips. Sarah could always act normal even though we hadn't spoken in weeks. I do admit I have missed her. I just nodded my head and kept looking down in my book. "Are you happy for them?"

"I am." I said quietly.

She nodded her head. "Hope." she hesitated. "Can we talk after class."

I knew exactly what she wanted to talk about, I was just not sure if I was happy about it.

"Sure."

But I had no intentions to tell her about Luke. It was going to end anyway and the least thing I wanted was for someone to pity me.

When the bell rang out we didn't hurry out from class, we just waited for everyone to leave and then we walked out. We stood by my lockers and thankfully this was the last lesson for today. I grabbed my stuff and then turned to her. We made our way to her locker and she grabbed her stuff and then she said.

"Do you need a ride home? We can talk in my car." I just nodded my head in response and then headed out the school.

-

"Hope, are you avoiding me? Because I remember the last time we spoke, you said we were going to make this work. And honestly I have no idea what I've done." she explained, clearly confused for why I avoided her.

"Nothing. You haven't done anything. It's my fault." I said.

"But why? I want this to work. And we have already had this conversation before, so why isn't anything happening?"

I just shrugged.

"Is it because I am dating Ashton?" she asked, she really wants to find out the reason. But of course, I don't blame her.

"I've already told you. It's not about that. And I am happy you're with Ashton. I don't own him."

She looked at me and then back to the road again.

"But I promise you." I continued, "I think this can work, because I might need you."

a/n

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