It's only been one day, why was it so hard? How am I going to survive a week if I can't even survive a day. I knew he was off somewhere with his friends, thinking that he will meet me when he get home. He will, but not in the way he expects. Not with hugs and kisses. I knew his heart will break, but if I don't do this he will break. Luke is more than I deserve, more than I've asked for. He was all I wanted and more. I needed him, but I couldn't have him. Because if I really loved him I had to make sure he was fine. And he couldn't be fine with me. I was a burden. Nothing to have. My mom had showed that clear.
I've spent this whole day crying at the stupid arguments I will have to come up with. How I have to reject him and tell him to leave when all I wanted was for him to stay. I will probably not even be able to look at him, but I have to be strong.
I never wanted to lose my friend, that's what I stated at the begging. I knew this was risky, even though I had taken the chance. And now I will lose both my friend and my lover. How pathetic. And the worst part is that it was Luke. He is the most sweetest boy I've ever met and I'll have to break his heart. I love him so deeply that if I let him go, I will break too.
I sat in my bed, staring down at my hands. Nothing will ever be the same again. And it is my fault.
a/n
hi guys im v sad and this was v short but ill post two today
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don't leave (l.h)
Fanfic"They are two parts of the same thing." he said, "Like us." I rolled my eyes to how cheesy he sounded and I knew it wasn't only because of the amount of alcohol that was traveling with his blood through the body.
