Serendipity (Dauntless Series #3)

Chapter 16

Biglang tumunog ang cellphone ni Seamus at nagkatinginan kami. Sinabi ko sa kaniyang ako na ang magpapatuloy sa ginagawa niya para masagot niya ang tawag. Baka mamaya importante iyon, kasalanan pa namin ng cheesecake.

I watched him as he exits on the sliding door gracefully. His left hand is resting on his waist while his right hand is holding the phone to his ear. He really has a wide back. Kahit itabi mo siya sa maraming tao, makikilala mo pa rin siya dahil na rin sa kaniyang katangkaran. He will surely stand out.

I blinked my eyes twice and continued mixing the creamcheese. Maya-maya ay bumalik na si Seamus. Tumayo ito sa dulo ng counter.

"I have to go. My friend is having a hard time at the party pulling off girls. She wants my help." namomroblema niyang sinabi. He even scratched the back of his neck.

I chuckled. "Can't blame her. Girls can be intimidating sometimes."

He laughed then nodded. Seamus went to the living room after saying his goodbye to me. Magpapaalam siguro kay Tita Odette.

I didn't realize that I kind of forgot about what happened earlier until my mind went to it. I feel bad that I always shut Rainier out every time we argue, but he's crossed the line. I told him before that I will not have a sexual interaction with him, but he can be persuasive sometimes to the point where I question myself if not giving in to him was the right decision. Of course, I know it was, but the thought of him getting mad at me just because I didn't give him what he wanted was grueling.

I distanced myself from him the following weeks. Rainier begged me to see him in person, he even cried over the phone, but due to my hectic schedule I failed to grant his request. I know he's mad.

Sa school na lang kami nagkikita nang magbukas ang klase dahil sa mga biglaan kong gig. He visits me in our classroom and spends his lunch break with me but I still keep a safe distance without him knowing. I don't mean to offend him but can he blame me?

"Hiwalayan mo na," sabi ni Gwyneth matapos kong i-kwento
sa kanila ang nangyari sa mall. Hindi kasi ako tinantanan ni Sheena hanggang sa macurious sila Verona at Gwyneth kaya wala akong choice.

"And throw away our one year relationship? No. I have faith that we will sort this out."

Napailing siya at tumingin sa mga kaibigan namin. Para bang suko na siya sa katangahan ko. Kahit ako rin naman. I am very aware that I'm being stupid every time I forgive Rainier for all the things he'd done and act as if nothing happened. Breaking up with him once crossed my mind, but I don't think I'll be happy with the aftermath it will bring.

"Maghihintay ka na lang bang madisappoint ulit hanggang sa maubos ka? Because Guia, you only care about Rainier's feelings. What about you, huh? Did it ever occur to you that it's you who needs to be saved and not your relationship or Rainier?" litanya ni Verona. She even stopped reading her favorite book just to make sure that her words will hit me hard.

I bowed down my head. I don't know what to do.

"He's here." sabi ni Sheena. Nagsitinginan kaming lahat sa pathway kung saan naglalakad si Rainier. Agad akong tumayo at pinulot ang mga gamit ko bago isa-isang hinalikan ang mga kaibigan ko sa pisngi. Gwyneth is still frowning while she watches me run towards Rainier.

It brings me comfort whenever I see him when we were still a new couple, but now all I feel is anxiety. Scared that the second I tear my eyes apart from him is the moment he'll do God knows what. Na baka bumalik na naman siya sa dati niyang bisyo nang hindi ko alam. The thing about his family is that they never show  Rainier that they care about him. I thought Tito Enzo is different, but he's always turning a blind eye whenever Tita Clarice abuses their children.