The Slytherin princess

Chapter 67 // Just The Girl In The Other Bed

she do be arguing doe

Hermione's POV

"you should've done something Hermione"

"I know... I know, I couldn't move anywhere I'm sorry!" tears rolled down my face, my vision was blurring from the water in my eyes, but they didn't waver from his face

"THIS IS YOUR FAULT!"

I flinched at his sudden rise of voice "I'm sorry! I'm so, so sorry I wanted to do something, I did!"

"But you didn't and someone died because of it! I will never forgive you!"

"but- but please! I'm sorry, I'm really, really sorry"

"SORRY DOESN'T BRING ME BACK"

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I jumped up in my bed, sweat soaking the sheets and dry tear stains streaked down my face. I looked around in every direction quickly, looking for a sign that the nightmare wasn't real, Draco standing in the doorway gave me that sign

"What happened love?"

"Blaise, he- he's not gonna forgive me... I should've- I should've done something" I hiccupped, Draco sat on the bed and pulled me to him, hugging me tightly, protecting me

"no 'mione, it's not your fault, don't blame yourself" he whispered

"yes it is, he was my brother... my responsibility"

"he wasn't your responsibility and even if he were you couldn't do anything, neither of us could, we were held back, remember?"

I nodded into his chest, even though I wasn't really listening to him "I miss my brother..." fresh tears started falling as my mind relived the nightmare

"I know... I know, I miss him too, it's okay baby.... It's okay"

"it's not okay, nothings okay, I haven't spent any time with my friends, and they're getting suspicious, Wren needs me and I haven't been there for her, Madam Pomphrey's been approaching me every other day over the fact I haven't been coming to the hospital wing, we had to leave the quidditch team and we don't even know if dumbledore's been given the stupid bottle of mead for us to finish this dumb task"

"I know, I know everything's gone wrong, but you still have me, we're going through this together, remember? I'll stay with you forever" those words comforted me enough to make me feel better and calm down

"don't leave me, not like he did" I muttered, lying back into bed with him at my side

"I won't ever leave you, never, okay?"

"Okay, will you stay with me tonight?"

he wrapped his arms around my waist "tonight... tomorrow night... every night you need me to"

"I love you"

"I love you more"

"that's not possible"

"I can assure you, darling, you won't ever love me as much as I do you"

"nope..."

I fell into a dreamless sleep

*

"If it isn't the master of potions himself! To what do I owe this pleasure?"

"Sir, I wondered if I might ask you something" by something you mean you want to ask him stuff about the dark lord? Yes, I keep up with this stuff

"ask away dear boy, ask away" how do I already know somethings gonna go wrong?

"well the other day I was in the library- in the restricted section, and I came across something rather odd about a very rare piece of magic" I'll bet you a hundred galleons that Slughorn's having some proper déjà vu right now

"yes, and what was this rare piece of magic?"

"I don't know, I- I can't remember the name exactly. It just got me wondering, are there some kinds of magic you're not allowed to teach us?" yes, loads

"I'm the potions master Harry, I think your question better be posed to Professor Snape"

"yes. Um.. he and I don't exactly see eye to eye sir, what I mean to say is" Merlin, don't say it or I swear "well, he's not like you, he might misunderstand" and he did it

"Yes. There can be no light without the dark and so it is with magic. Myself, I always strive to live within the light, I suggest you do the same" yeah, well some people don't really get a choice to 'live within the light' do they?

"is that what you told tom riddle, sir, when he came asking questions?" idiot, actual idiot

"Dumbledore put you up to this didn't he? didn't he?!"

*

"can we talk 'mione?"

I was sitting in the common room with Draco, Theo, and daphne when Wren called me from the doorway of the dorm

"sure, give us a minute" I stood and made my way to our dorm "what's up?"

"that's what I was going to ask you... I haven't spent any time with you and you and Draco keep disappearing every night, what's going on?"

"I don't know what to tell you Wren" I hadn't planned any excuses

"the truth, you're my best friend, you're supposed to tell me these things"

I sighed, fiddling with my fingers behind my back "I know... I know, but I cant tell you, I'm so incredibly sorry but I can't, you have to understand"

"wow, you really are a crappy friend aren't you? My boyfriend died, died! And you haven't been there to help me through any of this shit" it's bad, Wren doesn't swear much

"your boyfriend? HE WAS MY BROTHER, YOU THINK I HAVEN'T BEEN GRIEVING TOO? YOU THINK I WANTED THIS? YOU THINK I WANT TO IGNORE YOU? Your so fucking selfish sometimes Inkwood" I didn't mean to call her inkwood

her eyes shifted with hurt..."I'm selfish? I'M SELFISH? Both of us lost someone, we're supposed to help each other get through it, but instead, I've had to rely on Theo and Daphne, THEO FOR MERLIN SAKE, I know you, you don't act like this"

I scoffed "you don't know me inkwood, you did, but not anymore, so don't you dare tell me how I've been living my life, honestly, you have no idea what I've gone through, you have no fucking idea!"

"then tell me! Tell me what's going on, or- or im leaving and... and im not coming back to you" what do I do, I cant tell her the truth...

"I don't know what you want me to say, I cant tell you so just deal with it"

tears filled her eyes but, being the girl she is, she didn't let them fall "fine, I'm leaving, if that's what you want... just- just say the word and I won't" she wanted to tell me not to let her leave, she wanted me to tell her to stay, she wanted me to tell her whats going on... she just wanted me back

my mind wanted to tell her to stay but my mouth wouldn't form the words "go, I don't need you anymore. i never did, leave, don't come crawling back to me"

"alright" the tears fell "you've changed Zabini"

"So has the rest of the world" I muttered, just loud enough for her to hear. She slammed the door closed behind her "don't leave me... I need you more than you know" I whispered as I heard her sobbing and storming down the stairs.

My own eyes filled with water

And with that, She was just the girl in the other bed again

bye Wren