" Broken Love " H.S (#Wattys2015)

Chapter One

"Christy wake up , wake up , Stella mum called Stella is harming herself again" , said mum I immediately got up from my bed and rushed to Stella house.

I reahed her place and there she was in her room holding a blade in her hand . She already had marks on her wrist and her mother was trying to stop her , I took the blade from her and threw it out of the window.

It's been a month since Nick had passed away. We even went to his funeral though Stella didn't wanted to see him getting buried down and somehow she was still in a shock and was not ready to except reality. This last month I was always with Stella most of the time I use to spend my time at her house because she wouldn't stop harming herself. After Nick death and also our last exam Stella and I didn't speak to each other but I couldn't let her alone take all the grief so I told my parents that I would stay at Stella place for most of the time and somehow they agreed to it.

Stella has been through a lot of pain this last month , she would cry all night and sometimes scream in her dreams and I just couldn't see her like this I would also cry with her sometimes and most of the time I had to stay strong for us. She would always say that nobody would replace Nick place and then cry again.

Today is the last day of september month and I know how this whole month have been. The only happy occasion in this month was when our results came and luckily we both managed to pass with good grades and our parents were also happy for us.

I wanted to celebrate with Stella but then she was still emotionally lost so we just kinda sat and watched movies and ate ice cream on our result day. Now my family and Stella family we were all waiting for the NYU acceptance letter or you can say for the big reault of getting through NYU which we will get after 4 days exact through mail .

I was all worked up about NYU whether we both were going to make it or not and whereas Stella I guess she has lost interest in NYU also and I once heard her telling her parents she wanted to drop this year but I couldn't let that happen. I can't jsut sit back and watch her moping a whole year over Nick death and being a emotional wreck.

So I promised myself that I will get her through this phase , so first I went straight up to her and told her to shout at me and even hit me so that she would atleast react because all this time she has been just acting like a nearly dead person I just wanted her to yell at me , hit me so that she could have a good loud cry for the last time and move on.

So i took her hand and started hitting myself and kept rambling stuffs saying it was my fault she took her hand away from my grip and just stared at my face and said sorry next thing I know I had my hands on my cheeks rubbing it because yes she slapped me and I was not at all mad infact I told her to slap me once more so that she would feel better but she just smiled and said one was enough and for the first time afer Nick death I saw a smile on her face.

"You should have seen your face when I slapped you". Stella said laughing

"At least it brought a smile on your face" , I said still rubbing my cheeks

Stella its okie you can talk to me but please don't be like this . I can't see you like this anymore you need to move on with your life.

Stella had tears in her eyes and she hugged me and spoke through her sobs , "thank you for being there for me Christy I am trying my best but its just so effing difficult I just can't get him out of my mind but I promise you that I won't let you and my family suffer anymore because of me and I will try my best to move on".

I hugged her again and said I promise you that I will help you get over him but right now you need to loose me from your grip so I can go and use your loo because I have been holding my wee from past half an hour. We both burst into laughter she let me go and I ran to the loo.