Stay (Topp Dogg) {Published on Amazon}

Part 20

Sunday

I was feeling rushed, but I also wanted Kidoh to be successful. So as I stood in my dressing room looking at myself in mirror, playing with my dress, I realized something. Something very important.

In a situation like this, my tics would be at their worst. I wouldn't be having a heart problem, but I would be sniffing, winking, clicking my tongue, the normal stuff. I'm not doing anything though. I haven't had a single episode in weeks. It's good, but it's weird.

On top of that, I have this really weird flue. I throw up when I smell certain foods I don't like. I throw up in the morning when I wake up. I'm just not healthy.

Right now, I'm five minutes away from getting married and I feel like I'm going to be sick.

In a way, I feel as if I accepted to be in an arranged marriage. I care for Kidoh, but I don't know if I'm in love with him. I can't say no because he needs me, but something is just telling me that this is wrong.

I look at myself in the mirror again. I look really pretty and I feel really pretty too. My dress is a giant princess dress that makes me look itty bitty. My mother did my hair and I did my makeup.

It only took me a month to plan this entire wedding, so it's a bit small. I don't really have any female friends at all, so I asked Xero to be my bridesman. He was more than happy to except. Although he seemed a bit off as well. I couldn't really tell what was wrong.

Xero walked into the room. He knocked on the door. I spun around and smiled widely. "Hi Xero." He smiled back and walked over to me in his black suit. "No episodes today? I would think you'd be nervous." I shrugged my shoulders. "Haven't been feeling nervous lately."

We stared at each other for a few more moments, then laughed loudly. "That is the biggest lie you've ever told me, Hyein." I nodded my head. "I know, I know."

He looked at the clock in the room. "It's time to go princess." I felt as if I got the wind knocked out of me. I bit my lower lip. "Are you sure?" I asked him. He chuckled. "You'll be fine, I promise." I let his words sink in and followed him out to the main doors of the church.

My father met me at the doors and we linked elbows. Xero rushed to his spot in the line. Then the music started. My heart pounded against my chest. Breathing suddenly became a difficult thing to do.

It was my turn to walk out this time. As I made my way out the door, everyone turned around to look at me. I held in my gasp and walked slowly towards the altar. My eyes scanned the area before me. Starting from the left, a line of men stood behind Kidoh. Kidoh's strong gaze hit me like a bullet. I continued to let my eyes glide to the right side of the room. There stood Xero, all by himself. He was looking at me with a string gaze too, only he looked sad.

I turned my eyes back to Kidoh and forced myself to smile because he was smiling. His eyes sparkled and I felt butterflies in my stomach.

Once we reached the altar, my father kissed my cheek and walked back to sit with my already crying mother.

Kidoh took my hands in his. This is it, I thought.

In a blink of an eye, it was over and done with. Everyone was clapping and throwing rice at us. Kidoh and I ran out of the church to the car out front. He opened the door for me and helped me in. Then he ran around the car to the passenger seat.

I never felt so alive. My pulse was fast and quick. Kidoh held my hand from the drivers seat. He backed up and we drove off.

He took us to our house. He ran to my side and opened the door for me. Kidoh lifted me up and carried me to the house. He grunted a few times and I couldn't help but laugh.

We both laughed together as he carried me to our bedroom.

My first time was just as great as I imagined.